lilxtaxxxiii Posted October 3, 2011 Share Posted October 3, 2011 Hello everyone, First of all, thanks to anyone who takes the time to read this. I am freaking out, and have no one else left to talk to! So, I am freaking out. I have been seeing this wonderful guy for about 5 months now. We started off great, and went through a slight rough patch when we had a weird fight almost every weekend. Mostly because of me and the stupid things I get insecure about. However, after one particularly bad and stupid fight, we talked to each other and reached an understanding that both of us need to communicate with the other better. We agreed to talk more, call each other, etc. We even kept our plans to go to San Diego together for a few days. It was a great vacation, and we had such a great time together. We didn't fight, we just enjoyed each other's company and I really felt like we reached an understanding that sometimes, we just say stupid things we don't mean. Stupid things that can easily be forgiven so we can move on. After that, we did not have a silly argument over nothing for more than two weeks! It felt so great, I thought we would finally be able to move on. This past weekend, however, I said one of these stupid things that could easily have been overlooked. It was such a non-issue, and I felt terrible for even bringing it up. He did something that made me feel a little weird, and I wasn't very smooth in saying why I felt weird, and I suggested cancelling plans for the next night because of this. I texted him this stupid thing, and he didn't respond all night so I figured he was annoyed and wanted to be left alone. I had every intention of calling him the next morning to apologize profusely and hopefully laugh with him about how stupid it all is. He texted me first, however. He was furious, and cancelled all our plans for the weekend. He refused to call me or let me call him. I told him all I wanted to do was apologize and explain, and he wouldn't let me do that either. I texted him a few times to check up and him and make sure he's ok. He would only say "I just want the weekend to myself". I emailed him a long apologetic email, telling him how sorry I am to have let something so silly make him this upset, and that the last thing I wanted to do was have a fight. All I wanted to do was say I'm sorry. He only wrote back one line: "I'm fine Sam. Just tired and wanted time to myself." What's going on? Could he possibly be this upset over something so stupid? And I guarantee you, it really is just that stupid and such a non-issue. We planned for a whole week for a day trip with his sister and my sister and he just cancelled it. He wouldn't let me apologize, refuses to speak to me. According to his sister, he hasn't been speaking with her, either. He just keeps saying over and over that he wants the weekend to himself. Well, the weekend is over, and he still has not contacted me at all. I am worried sick, both about him and the relationship. I've cried, I haven't been able to eat or sleep very well. I really care about this guy, I love him. How can he leave me in the dark like this? What's going on? Does he want to break up with me? If he wants to dump me, I wish he would just do so already without keeping me in such awful suspense. Things were JUST starting to get better, and I thought they would just keep getting better and stronger... I didn't think either of us would let something silly get in the way of improving things. Or does he really just want time to himself? Why won't he tell me what's going on? What is he hiding from me? Why won't he tell me why he needs space? He says he's tired... He's always tired... Really? Why won't he even let me apologize? Why is he throwing away what we worked so hard to fix? Why does he hate me... I hate those words so much. "I need time to myself"... Link to comment
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