raghimatiger Posted October 1, 2011 Share Posted October 1, 2011 Yep, so 30 seconds into being a member, I'm posting. I'll be honest it was my only purpose for joining. Okie dokie. So, I'm 21 and have the most amazing 2 year old son. i'm a nurse so my schedual is quite hectic. Pretty much 7 days a week I'm doing atleast 4-11 hours a day. Whilst im at work my partner (let's say... X is his name) sits at home and looks after our son. Now, we have been together for 6 years, yes the cliche "On and off". We've been through the whole him cheating, seeing other people blah blah blah etc. My issue now is, he sits at home, earning money from the government for sitting at home & hardly looks after our son.I come home on my breaks (often 11.30am and X is asleep while my son is running around in the nappy i put on him the night before) I pay our rent, the bills, aswell as put food in the cupboard and put clothes on my child. I was once inlove with X but now I feel like I can say I love him but I'm not inlove with him (I am aware that makes absolutely no sense as X tells me). Put it this way the sight of him drives me insane but if we were to split up I'd probably hate myself for the rest of my life. I have no physical attraction to X at all, we don't talk and we have an absolute non exsistant sex life. I know this is my fault because he says he is still 100% inlove with me. But, I truly can't change how I feel. He has cut off all connections I have with any person of the oposite sex so it's not that I am inlove with anyone else. And I know this is sounding like its his fault but its not it's absolutely mine. I just can't work out why I can't just let him go so easy. In my head it sounds so easy, when it comes to our arguements its really not. What is going on in my brain seriously? Any suggestions other than psychiatric help? Thanks Link to comment
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