fille espionne Posted September 28, 2011 Share Posted September 28, 2011 Hi everyone I had been seeing someone for 6 months, he was a saviour to me when I met him. I had been alone for years, dating insignificant other after insignificant other and I'd lost all hope. I was hurt when 2 years ago a guy dumped me for another girl. When I met "Sammy" he made me so happy and me feel so loved. He was kind, considerate and respectful and made me feel worthy and like a real girl, for quite possibly the first time ever. (I'm 27). The past 6 months, having him in my life, I felt whole. As time went on he opened up that he had his own issues, had been hurt before by a girl he thought he was going to marry and was with 4 years, but she broke his heart and has a new lover. She still however, messages Sammy to say how much she misses the loving times they shared. I got a new job and having him give me his attention and affection and to make me feel worthy, propelled me to heights I had previously not been capable of after being crushed in the past. About a month ago, he told me, out of the blue that he couldn't stop thinking about his ex (she dumped him 2 years ago, and is still with someone else) and that he didn't feel ready to be in the relationship that we had. He was too unstable and wanted space. I was understanding but didn't let go. After this conversation we ended up still seeing eachother and he said he felt closer to me after opening up. I wanted him to feel loved so I contacted him more and tried to make more plans- everything was going well and I felt like we had made a breakthrough the last time I saw him. 2 weeks ago we had an amazing weekend together and he was making plans for us the next weekend, and spoke and acted like everything was great. Two days later he calls to tell me he can't go on. He feels guilty after evertime we are together and I deserve more, I deserve someone who is totally in to me, he feels like something is missing between us and he doesn't know what it is- but he needs to be alone. He doesn't know if and when that will change. He says we can meet up, yet he then changes his mind and says distance is best. Him ignoring me made me feel helpless so I bombarded him with texts and emails pouring my heart out and saying I was so confused by his change in behaviour. He said he thinks I am a great girl with a good heart and that he never intended on hurting me, and the reason he was happy 2 days before dumping me is because he felt like it was good then. On reflection in the 2 days after, he started to feel unsure again. Its like when I'm around him- hes fine, but when we are apart, he trys to keep us more apart. He said he wants me to be a part of his life. He said he feels terribly for hurting me and hopes I return to my happy cheery self soon but ATM he has to think of himself as selfish as it sounds and be alone. I am feeling so lost without him, he really was a beautiful soul and I feel like something is stopping him get close to me. He won't even try, everytime we get close he backs away. I just want him in my life, I want to hold him and hug him. I feel there is no good reason for us ending, and I just want one more chance. I feel like part of him knows he didn't fully give himself. I just want him back, I don't know whether to ask for another chance again or leave it for a week or 2. I sent him a message the night before last and said I was sorry for making him feel bad I just missed him and felt so helpless and I was sorry for sending him so many messages (he replies to most btw, even long crazy emotional ones!) He said he feels guilty for not spending more time with me, he feels terrible and really bad that I am hurting, but he has to be selfish atm and he never intended for it to be like this. He hopes I feel normal soon. Any advice? Should I give up? Has anyone been here before? I miss him so much I just want to scream it to him! I would die if I saw him with someone else Link to comment
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