Baudilaire Posted September 27, 2011 Share Posted September 27, 2011 Even if the ones I'm having now subside they'll only resurface again. I'm sure one day I will go ahead with it. There are only so many times you can want to do it and then back out. After a good cry things seem better but why do I have to cry all the time. I cry to the point of wanting to throw up and sometimes I do. I'm only 20 what sort of life is this. I've been going through a lot of pain over the past 3/4 years. The only thing I can think of is starting my ambition to become a singer. I think that's the only thing that could make my life better if it was too pull through. Other than that I've always wanted to be a psychiatrist or a therapist or whatever but I'm not studying the right things for that unfortunately. I need to pick myself up somehow because no1 is going to do it for me. No-one is here for me which is why I come onto sites like this. I'm going to make an attempt at it. If it fails then believe me when I say I will definitely have hit rock bottom. I so want a future with children and a husband and sometimes I feel like everything I'm going through now will ruin things if I don't make it to that age. All my friends have started their families already. I wish I wish I wish I could be in the arms of the man who cared about me. I wish I wish I wish I was strong enough to take my life and control everything Link to comment
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