Nostalgia Posted September 27, 2011 Share Posted September 27, 2011 I never thought I could love someone I have never met, but here I am typing this because my feelings are so strong for him that I need some advice. I met him online maybe two or three years ago. We talked on and off for some time and then six or seven months ago we started talking a lot more. More often and about more serious topics. We started talking every single day about anything and everything that's bothering us and on our minds. We click in so many different levels. I can honestly say that this man is my best friend in the entire world. I can talk to him about things I have never been able to tell anyone before. When I was at a real low point in my life, I talked to him as I was freaking out and balling my eyes out and he somehow managed to calm me down and he gave me a drive to turn my life around. I am exactly where I want to be in life right now and I would not be here if it wasn't for him. He's really something special; he's said things to me that have made me cry happy tears. Things that he probably has no idea meant so much to me too. I hate using the word "love" because I don't even know what it is, but this certainly feels like it's more than just lust. I'm a very busy girl. I'm the type that even if you're my really good friend, you have to wait months to see me or talk to me because I'm always booked up with something. Regardless how busy I get though, I always make a point to talk to him at least once a day. Something I can't say I've done with anyone in my life. He has my full attention. I guess I wanted to describe my feelings a little before I got into what my dilemma is. He lives half-way accross the world. We're both fairly young and don't have enough money to see each other right now as much as we really want to meet. I want to be with him so bad, but I don't know if it's ever going to work and I've tried going on dates with guys that live close to me, but I can't stop thinking about him. My heart belongs to him. I don't know what I want advice on in particular, but I'm having a really hard time with this because it hurts not being able to be there for him when he's upset. I don't think I'll ever get over him and it's not like I could ever stop talking to him. I would seriously go crazy if I didn't have him. Is anyone going through the same thing? Or have you dealt with something like this before? I'd like to hear your stories because I'd do anything to be with him, but sometimes I just feel as though it's a lost cause and I'm just after something I can't have. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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