kaleidoeyes Posted September 26, 2011 Share Posted September 26, 2011 I turned 18 a few days ago, and have known one of my very close friends since I was 7 years old. She told me she was bisexual when she was 12, and I've always been accepting of it. She's a great girl and we have such a great time together. Up until three weeks ago. I'm from Canada, and will possibly be moving back in a few months. I was telling her how much I'd miss her, and she confessed that she's in love with me, and has been for about the past year. It was a real shock to me. We talked it out for a long time, and at the end, I gave her a hug, and well...we somehow ended up kissing. I'm straight. Completely sure of it. I'm not attracted to her. But the kissing and general intimacy has become a regular thing now. What the hell am I doing? I crave attention and physical closeness so much that I'd be willing to do this..? She is fully aware that I'm straight. I told her this was a bad idea, cos although I love her, it's not in the same way, and it's leading her on and using her. I told her we should stop, and I should keep my distance. But she said no, definitely not; she knows I'm not gay, and she's under no delusions about what I'm trying to get out of this. She always tells me I'm gonna find a great guy one day and be happy. She says that she won't feel this way about me forever, so for now there's no harm in doing something that feels so right and makes us both so happy. I'll admit it, I like being desired. And I like being close to people. Anybody. I can't go back to having a normal friendship with her, knowing how she feels...so if I end things, I'll lose her completely. She says it's not hurting her, that she just sees me as a friend who it's possible to be as close as possible with. If she's fine with it...am I doing the wrong thing? Link to comment
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