pbnjam Posted September 24, 2011 Share Posted September 24, 2011 I've been dating this girl for 2 years. Two of which years I was the one that she loved and I was the one who didn't show love back. She did everything a good girl friend should do. Sept 17th marked the day she decided that it was best for us to part ways. She explained it was because she loved me for so long and never received it back and that as time went on, she began falling out of love. She said it hurt so much for 2 years and she wished so much that I would love her back, she even had 5 dreams where I said I loved her. I do love her. With all my heart. I didn't show it and I know I messed up big time. I regret every moment that I didn't show her the love she deserved. She says she stilled confused, she said she needs time to think. I'm so scared that if she gets time to think that she'll fall more and more out of love for me. I know it was a mistake but I went to see her last night, I want to show her that I do love her, I told her I do. I set up this whole sweet thing and we talked for a long time.. 2 hours. I ended up kissing her. Oh my god it felt so good. I asked her at the end if it was okay that I did because she kissed back too... she said she didn't know. She explained that she doesnt know if she should get back with me because her feelings weren't like they were before and that she doesn't want to relive the past 2 years because it'd be another waste of time. I love her. I absolutely do. I know I want to be with her... I know I need to give her space. After last night, I couldn't sleep.. I reopened my damned wounds. She mentioned that her mom knows all about this... I wonder if I should go to her Mom and be genuine and ask her mom for help. Her mom is a nice person... I'm 70% sure she'd keep confidentiality.... I miss her. There's that bubble in my heart, that pressure in my chest. If she'd only take the risk to feel love... I could show her the love she's wanted. Some advice would be greatly appreciated as this broken heart needs to mend. @smile12 because... I'm 22 years old... she was my first girlfriend and I thought that love would be this miraculous beam of light that would tell me Thou lovet herthshse. Ank. Wrong. So delusional. I didn't want to show love if I never said it. Sigh. Now that I'm ready to show it, she's not sure what to do. She said that its not only that she's scared and doesn't want a repeat, but that she also lost an amount of feelings for me. Sigh. We spent the last 4 days of our relationship together and it was one of the most real times we had in our relationship because I finally showed that I loved her. It was last week's Weds - Saturday. Those were some of the happiest days of my life, I made a youtube video to surprise her when she woke up that compiled those few days HOPING that (because at that time she was unsure if she wanted a break) it would convince her not to go on the break. hxxp 0QRVcPoTJBUDZkPI9_8lw She said that those days were wonderful too. Link to comment
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