soundlessvoice Posted September 20, 2011 Share Posted September 20, 2011 Today marks exactly two weeks since I've I broken up with my boyfriend of five years. I started dating him when I was 19 and he's the only person I've ever dated and loved, so I guess this would be my "first love". We pretty much lived together those entire 5 years and I don't want to get into it, but enough was enough and I knew I had to break it off and move on. I regret it every moment, not because it was a bad decision but because I didn't realize it would hurt this much. Everyone tells me that I'll get over it, they I will move on and find someone better...but it doesn't feel that way. Sometimes I feel this burst of strength and that I'm going to get through this and then a precious memory will pop up and I just fall apart all over again. I've lost 7 pounds in a week, I don't want to eat or sleep or do much of anything. Somewhere in those five years I lost me and it become "us." and I can't see it being just me again, I don't know what to do and if this amount of pain is even normal? I want nothing more than to call or e-mail him, but I'm trying my best to not do just that. Chances are if I do, I won't get a reply and it'll make me that much crazier. I'm rambling on, I guess I just needed to vent a little or even hear some support from people who have been able to move on from their great memories because right now I feel I'm getting worse every day. Link to comment
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