ApocalypseDreams Posted September 19, 2011 Share Posted September 19, 2011 Is it normal to be nonchalant about life? Late last year I was involved in a pretty bad car accident which I walked away uninjured from. I suppose I should be thankful for having the good fortune to be still here. I don't though, but rather I wish I died in that car accident. I could of died there, in an instant, and it wouldn't of mattered. Not to me and not to anyone else. I don't make a difference to anything and I can't even manage to conjure up a future that is not based in fantasy. I can't say, with any conviction whatsoever, honestly that my life is actually headed anywhere or I will ever amount to anything. I lack a tonne of personal attributes that make people human and almost everything leaves me feeling empty. Social interactions, despite the fact that I desire them, leave me feeling weird and alien. I really just hope, that if such a thing was to ever happen again, that things would work out differently and I would no longer be here. I don't know how to live. Link to comment
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