Dlar Posted September 19, 2011 Share Posted September 19, 2011 Well, My story is: Get talking to an old friend, and talka hell of a lot. Every day, every night. I have to go for an operation, but end up getting diagnosed with an illnes called Ulcerative Colitis. Me and the mentioned girl still talk, a lot, but because she has a child I try not to get too attached or serious and we just stay friends. As time goes on, we drift apart, her probably getting fed up of me just staying in the friend zone, and she meets someone else. This kills me and I realise how much I like her, so tell her my feelings. She isnt sure what to do, this guy has come along and dated her, got into a relationship with her whereas I was keeping my distance. Few days go by, her and this guy fall out and she says it was because of me, I'm the one she wants and always has wanted. We get close again, go out a couple of times but nothing serious happens, and she starts to go a little cold on me, eventually stop talking to me and starts seeing the other guy again. This kills me deep down, but after a couple of weeks I start to get my head straight - Only for her to get in touch again, saying she made a istake, she had a few things going on in her life and her head was not in the right place. I believe her, start talking again and go out a couple of times. She again starts to go cold, this time she says she has an infection, not well ect ect. I get a little jealous and paranoid, start asking questions as to why she's not talking to me, who shes with and if she's seeing someone else again. Well, from here on things have gone from bad to worse, she won't talk to me, she's always out with her cousin, cousins new bf and his brother - This makes me tink maybe she's "dating" the brother of her cousins bf but I've not questioned it, just left it as it is. Anyway, in comes my illness. I've not been the same since I was diagnosed, I have been really down, confidence has been shattered and I'm just low in general. Its such an awful illness, no cure unless you have an operation, an operation tht is also not nice to have at 24 years old! I'm currently talking steroids to keep the flare down, but with the steroids come the ups and downs, and when I;m down I really feel it. All I want is for the said girl to be there for me, as a friend. To talk to me, ask how I am but instead she just carries on ignoring me as if I didn't exist! I'm currently waiting for my nurse to call me back, as it looks like I may need to be admitted to get this flare up down. Again, I'm sooo worried and now feel like I'm so alone I'm dropping into some real depression. I have even been laid in bed thinking "Why am I even here? I may as well end it all". My female friends all say I'm "the nicest guy ever" and that the person who marrys me will "be the luckiest girl in the world" but none of these know how depressed and down I get and I feel like I'm going to be alone for ever. Sorry to ramble on and create multiple threads on here, I just need somewhere to spill everything as I have no one else to speak to! Now back to the girl, how she can't even just reply to a text, say she hopes I'm ok is pretty heartless after all we've been through. I would never dream of just ignoring her or anyone else who was feeling low as I know it just makes things worse! SOooooo fedu p Link to comment
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