Triggered sadness over something inconsequential

[KuroShinsei]

So things have been rough for me lately, but all in all I had come to the conclusion that I wanted nothing to do with my ex, that she was a terrible person and I'm better off with her not in my life. I have a lot of anger towards her for all she has put me through and I genuinely believe she is a terrible person.

 

That being said, today in my boredom I decided I was going to play an old super nintendo game, something I haven't done in a very long time. So I start it up, and there her name is, she had been playing it when we were still together. For some reason this just made me really sad, so sad in fact that I had to talk about it (hence why I'm posting now). I don't want to be with her, but I don't really see why seeing her name there depressed me so much. I mean yes we have been NC for about 6 weeks, but we also play another online game, and I see her name on there all the time... today even. Why is it so hard now?

 

I guess I just don't really understand the emotion, but I'm depressed and lonely now and I wanted to share with someone and hopefully hear back from others. Thanks for reading.

[Mesemene]

Most of the time, when you start to heal - it's the unexpected things that trigger those feelings.

 

Sure, you see her name on an online game - but you expect to, and unconsciously armor yourself against it. Something you just can't do when you come accross something out of the blue. Then it can hit you like a sucker punch, which emotionally, is pretty much what it is. It opened up a nice little gate for all those feelings when you weren't ready to deal with them.

 

There's nothing wrong with you - and it's something most of us have probably experienced. That doesn't make it hurt any less - but at least you know it's not just you It sounds like you're on the right road to getting past your ex, so keep on keeping on!