There feels like no way out

[saku]

I could probably stop at the title alone, and it's painful to go into full detail about all the things that are hurting me to this point. I don't want to live anymore, yet i'm afraid to take my life. I wrote a suicide note which felt weird but i still have it weeks later. I feel powerless to confront those who hurt and wronged me....hell, it's hard to say that because i feel like I'm unfairly blaming people for things. But the thing is, I blame people for the wrongs they cause; it's my choice to take my life and i don't blame anyone for that. I just wish the pain would stop. Sorry for being vague but like i said, it is hard to say everything because i feel somewhat ashamed.

[Stand Strong]

I've had thoughts like that when I was younger. I'm stronger now. My whole life has been one giant struggle/test of strength. Hardships can make you weak or strong. You have to decide.Things are bad for me with no sign of getting better.I'm also prone to "Bad Luck". I never been so superstitious, but things in my life ALWAYS take a turn for the worse. Yet I keep on fighting. Why? Because without life, what else its there? Even though I'm intensely lonely, isolated from society and have been since I was a kid, I still move forward. You can too.