ChocALicious Posted September 14, 2011 Share Posted September 14, 2011 My ex dumped me and left me for someone else and I'm still hurting! We were together for 5 years, have a child & he left me for one of the * * * * s he cheated on me with. He went around showing her off, going on holiday together, I found out last year he tattooed her name over our childs but claims he was drunk, it was a mistake and he regrets it and is ashamed. The 3 years we've been broken up he keeps coming around claiming to love me, says he made a mistake, realized what he let go & called her a * * * * , said he wants his family back and only loves me but I don't believe him and he says why can't I just let it go/forget it, but he's still with her just lying he isn't. Plus you don't holiday with someone and tattoo their name on you if you "think" you love them or was just in lust as he says, he's such a liar but part of me foolishly still loves him even though I don't want to. I'm doing a lot better than that first year, the last 2 years honestly I was doing great but the last few months I've started hurting again, why? I'm so upset lately and crying. He's the only guy I've ever loved and we were together almost 5 years. I need to break all contact with him and stick to it but I always give in to his baggering me after a month and changing my number doesn't help as he always gets it from his mum and mine and contacts me! I just really want to move on with my life, am sick of hurting.. I even considered asking him to try again this week but I won't, I find it difficult to trust any guy since, I'm terrified of getting hurt again (I know not to tarnish all men with the same brush but its just me I can't do it again) and have remained single and plan to do so the rest of my life, will use a sperm donor for more children after I finish my studies. I just feel as if he never ever loved me at all as if he did he wouldn't have treated me the way he did, he says he was young & dumb & has changed but we're only 26yrs now & I don't see any changes at all. Why can't I stop hurting its been 3 & half years now, soon it will be 4years and I've already wasted so much time hurting. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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