yellowjello Posted September 14, 2011 Share Posted September 14, 2011 Yesterday I was hanging out with my boyfriend and he didn't have much time to hang out. He needed to be home in half an hour. He was really horny because he doesn't jerk off, he only gets off when hooking up with me. And the last time he saw me was a week ago. He wanted to hook up but I didn't really want to (partially because I was on my period and partially because I didn't feel like it). And I asked him, you only have thirty minutes to spend with me, why would you want to spend them hooking up? Wouldn't you rather just be with me and spend time with me? He said that as of now he has the desire to hook up so he would want to spend the time doing that, and it doesn't matter because we can spend time together any other time. We can spend time together tomorrow, or whenever we want. So we can hold off on that for now, for this impending desire. That makes sense. I understand that. If he felt like hooking up now, he wanted to hook up now, and it's not a big deal because it's not like we're never going to get to spend time together. We can always do that next time. But then I asked, what if you hadn't seen me in a year. And today you finally saw me and could only see me for thirty minutes. He said "I would most definitely want to spend the entirety of that thirty minutes banging you." I said "even if you wouldn't be able to see me again for another six months?" He said "yes." That sort of broke my heart. It just bothers me. If I never get to see my boyfriend and I have thirty minutes to see him before losing him again for six months, I would want to spend time with him and hold him and kiss him and just be with him. I feel like if its just banging for physical pleasure, that is so unimportant in this situation because I can get that physical pleasure anytime. I can hook up with any hot guy and get physical pleasure, that is not what I'm losing here. What I'm losing is HIM, and the ability to be with him and be close to him. Wouldn't I rather spend my time doing THAT (something that I will never get to do again) instead of wasting it on the pursuit of physical pleasaure (something that I can get anytime anyway)?? I mean if it were making love that is different. I would want to spend those thirty minutes making love with him because that is not about physical pleasure. I would make love with him as a way of being close with him and connecting with him and that is the perfect thing to do in those thirty minutes. So basically I simply would not concentrate on physical pleasure in those thirty minutes that is the least important thing. And the fact that he said this affected me a lot. I came home and didn't talk to anyone and just went to bed and felt like crying. And this morning when I woke up I was still in shock. I really feel miserable. Am I taking this too seriously? Is this a big deal? Is there anything to worry about? Does this mean anything? Link to comment
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