dan10 Posted September 14, 2011 Share Posted September 14, 2011 so lately i've been thinking that things were getting better for me. i got some friends, i had stuff to do, u know the stuff that a miserable person wants to do... well up until today i thought that things were getting better, that i was changing as a person and growing and my life was getting better. but then i got a txt from an ex interest of mine and i found out that just a few txts back and forth put me right back where i was before and i hate it. i have no coping mechanisms other then to just go numb and block out all emotion. how do i grow and change so that i am not angry and depressed all the time when it appears like the reasons for me being that way are all external forces that are very difficult to control so they dont make me that way? i think this is why i was always let out of the mental hospitals i've been so quickly. i go in for major depression and suicide and then when the stimuli that are making me that way are gone all of a sudden there is nothing wrong with me and the psychiatrist cant think of a reason to keep me. anyone been stuck in this rut before and know how to get out of it? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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