beacon Posted September 14, 2011 Share Posted September 14, 2011 This isn't some whimpering post. I am beyond functional but I've never been here before. Yesterday I worked, worked out at the gym at lunch and went skateboarding after work. Today I worked, worked out at the gym at lunch and played tennis after work. I'm reading inspiring literature. I even have a moonlighting job so I'll stay productive. I play guitar regularly and I have events planned. I'm going to a NFL game Sunday. I started planning a snowboarding trip with a group of friends and I'll be getting a season pass to a local mountain just as I did last year. I feel like a robot in doing it all though. There is no passion in most things and a lot of apathy. I am trying to live life, but there is no enjoyment. She is still always on my mind and it will be 3 full months in a few days. I love her and I want to be in contact with her. Before I felt like contact would take me back to square one, but I'm realizing that I feel like I'm still there now. This sucks. Thanks for letting me vent. Maybe I am whimpering. Why can't I heed my signature? Strangeness... Link to comment
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