Voodoodoll Posted September 11, 2011 Share Posted September 11, 2011 I'm just sitting here and thinking of memories, oh so precious memories.... I'm 3 months out of a relationship with a guy that was what I thought 'the love of my life'' , even now when I think of 'us' , I just think ''damn it, we were something else, why'd ya have to go and feck it all up'' ......I get scared sometimes that i'll never love someone like that again, that I'll never even allow myself to love someone in that depth again, that'll I'll never be completely attracted to a guy the way I was with him, that I'll be in a relationship that the guy is crazy for me but I'll only just love them and not be head over in heels in love with them the way I was with my ex...... I think of memories I have with him, all the good ones, they seem so timeless.... He rang me last week and in a part of our conversation he talked about the way we were and said '' I don't wanna depress you or anything but we were great, the way we were was like something out of a movie, it would be hard to get something like that again, well I won't anyway, hope you do '' .....after the phone call I thought about what he said and all i could think of was the memories and it feels in a way that by letting go of this relationship I'm saying goodbye to all the memories we've made, all the good ones, that they'll fade, even though I know they won't, or that the memories will forever hunt me. The annoything thing about the situation i'm in is that we broke up because he drank too much, a bit of an alcoholic you could say ... it pissis me off that our relationship had to end because of this, of course it's not the only factor, there was the new distance thing, he moved 5 hours away for college and that was always a strain.... I don't want these memories to fade, but I don't want them to hunt me... It's like I want the way we were back but I know I can never get that, it's hard to accept, and the only way I can get over this is if I accept it, but at the moment it seems ever so impossible.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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