Mustang Posted September 8, 2011 Share Posted September 8, 2011 I've had iTunes on shuffle all day and I've just heard a recording that I made of an argument with my ex girlfriend a month or so before she went off with someone else (I think). Anyway, listening to it now, I was shocked at how I just sat back and sighed when she was saying things to me about how she didn't / couldn't trust me and how she would accuse me of things I wasn't doing. Not once do I say "I love her" while all that was going on. I just argued back and said she was wrong. That makes me feel sad. Had I done so, maybe I would've still been with her now. Listening to it just makes me realise how I took her for granted and just assumed that she'd be with me no matter what. I hate that because I really did (and still do) love her. I just didn't show it and hearing the recording has made me look at things completely differently. Whilst I've been hurt by her, clearly I hurt her too. I know I've been making out that I'm the victim and in some cases I may be, but I realise that I've been selfish in my grief because she obviously felt unloved for a while which is why she did what she did. I know there's nothing I can do about it now, I just wish I could go back and change things. The saying "you don't know what you've got until it's gone" couldn't ring more true with me right now. I wish I had another chance to prove how sorry I am and how the time apart has made me realise what she means to me. But I know she won't listen. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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