SpleenPoetry Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 It's been about two months since my break up. I'm still nowehere near over it... A short summary: At the start of the summer holidays me and my boyfriend of 15 months broke up. We did have our arguments, but still the break up was completely out of the blue. Two days earlier he told me that we needed to talk (we had some argument that week) but that I didn't have to worry, because everything would be fine between us again after that. He said he had such strong feelings for me. And then, on friday, he told me he wanted a break, a hiatus. He told me that we'd get back together eventually and that he'd be there for me during the break. Since that moment he's been completely ignoring me. I haven't heard anything from him. It's like he has disappeared from the planet. We live only about 200 meters apart. I didn't stalk him with calls or emails, I tried to contact him only a few times. But still he ignored them. The first couple of weeks after the break up I still thought that it was just a hiatus, so I still had hope of getting back together. Then I sent him a last letter and asked him to give me closure and to be honest with me: is it a break up or is it a break? But, as expected, he didn't reply...from that moment I've been trying to accept that it's over...I then changed my FaceBook status to single again, and so did he. I've been without him for two months now, and I still feel very down. I don't cry as much anymore as I did the first week however. The thought of never getting to hug or kiss him ever again kills me. We spent so much time together (too much probably, my life had become all about him), almost every day of the week I was looking forward to seeing him in the evening. Now my whole life feels meaningless...I can't get him out of my mind. I was still very much in love with him the moment he broke up with me. I don't know what to do. I'm looking for a new job and other things to do, liketaking classes, but it all feels so meaningless. I can't really look forward to anything knowing he will never be with me again. I feel very empty inside. I miss him so much, I long to hug and kiss him but I know that will never happen again. Memories of the good times keep passing my mind. How do I stop that? It hurts so much...Every evening I miss him and every weekend...I just don't know what to do, is it normal to still feel like this two months later? Everything reminds me of him...I ruined to exams in the summer holidays because of all this. I wonder if I will ever love someone as much as I loved him, I wonder if I will ever fall in love with someone again. My feelings for my ex are still so strong. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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