Mustang Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 So today is day 14 of NC. I've been feeling reasonably OK but I have also had a few moments where my mind has gone into overdrive and I've gone into deep thinking mode. Y'know, all the usual stuff - What is she up to? Who is she with? Is she thinking of me at all? Does she still care about me? Etc etc. Late at night this weekend it drove me insane. For the first time in two weeks, I looked at her Facebook today. I'm not friends with her so I can only see her Facebook profile picture. It was a picture of her posing (quite obviously drunk and on a night out). I instantly thought, who took the photo, who was she with, clearly she's not missing me if she's out having fun, etc, etc. I regret unblocking her and doing that. Anyway, I've managed two weeks and I think I've done OK. I miss her like crazy and have a really strong urge to contact her. I can't though. I have no reason to. I have nothing to say and any contact I make will be a) a sign of weakness and b) an excuse. It's hard though. It really is. Her actions in the run up to the break up were extremely hurtful and I'm clinging on to those bad thoughts for dear life to avoid going back and making myself look pathetic. As far as I'm concerned, she's the one that did bad things and she's the one that should contact me to rectify them (which I can't see her doing). But I really really need some motivation today. TELL ME NOT TO CONTACT HER. The urge to do it is really strong (but I know if I do I will kick myself). Link to comment
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