lissa23 Posted September 3, 2011 Share Posted September 3, 2011 Wow, it's been a very long time since I last posted here... Back in 2007/2008 I went through a very difficult break up. I was with my "first love" for 3 years and during the time we were breaking up, I lost my grandfather (who was like a father to me). Over the last 4 years, I ended up losing the rest of my 3 grandparents and my uncle. I had dated on and off, usually not having a relationship for more than 6 months. A part of me felt that a lot of the loss I experienced was really getting to me even though I tried to not let it. My ex was horrible to me during the time I was losing my grandfather. When I finally broke up with him, I was just so angry because he didn't understand how hard it was for me. So, I guess because I lost more family throughout the last few years, I assumed most people wouldn't understand. So to not get the same disappointment, I never dated until I felt I was "over it". I'm realizing now that I may never just "get over" losing my grandpa and my grandma... They raised me and it's like losing my parents. I'm in my mid 20's now, and I feel that I'm ready. But I always seem to stop myself from "getting out there". I use to be very outgoing, and now I am an extremely focused career woman who spends half my time at work and half my time at home alone. How do I get out of this cycle? And get over my insecurities? Thanks for listening. Link to comment
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