i feel really stupid for thinking about her!

[w3536]

I went out with this girl (rose) for 3 years. About 8 months ago she broke up with me and of course I begged her to stay for like a month. Then I didn’t have contact with her until like 3 months ago. She came back into my life telling me that she missed me and loved me and what not and we ended up having sex more than once. Then out of the blue again she said she didn’t want to be with me anymore and I begged once again for like a week until finally I just gave up and told her that I could do better and this was like a week ago. Sometimes I do think about her but I am fine and that’s what gets me! I shouldn’t be thinking about her and this is why:

About a year ago on the day before labor day we went to the park near where she lived because people from near that place were having an event. So we went and everything was going fine until I got a text. She ORDERED me to tell her who it was and I just didn’t feel like getting bossed around so I told her if she wanted to know she could ask me nicely and she didn’t. She went her way with her daughter and left me alone with mine (I have 2). About an hour later she calls me up and asks me if I can take her home and I said yes politely but I told her that I would have to take my kids first to their home.

I dropped them off at their moms house and as I soon as I got back into the car she asked me again “who the texted you?” I got upset and told her that I wasn’t going to be telling her. I put my cell in between my legs and I normally do(don’t know why I do this I just do). It infuriated her that I wasn’t going to tell her and she had lemonade that she had been drinking and spilled the lemonade all over my pants making sure to wet my phone. I still remained calm and told her calmly that I didn’t want to fight because her daughter was asleep in the back seat. That we should talk about this some other day before it got out of hand. She said (and I’ll never forget this), “if you don’t tell me im going to pull the steering wheel and im going to make you crash!” of course I said that she was out of her mind, that how could she think that and even more so because her daughter was in the back seat. I remember we were at a stop light.

The stop light turned green as just about as I was taking off, I might have been going 30 mph, all of a sudden she pulled the steering wheel and I crashed into the car that was right next to me. I was out of my mind mad and I yelled at her, “I don’t ever want to see you again!”

When the cops came I didn’t want her to get in trouble so I told them that it was my fault. That I was drinking the lemonade and it fell and when I was trying to get it I swerved and hit the car.

After that about 2 weeks later she said she was sorry and wanted to get back with me. I forgave her and we started going back out again but not before she started to blame the whole accident on me. That it was my fault! While we were going out when I would ask her to help me pay for the damages she would simply say “I don’t have any money im sorry” She didn’t pay anything. Not the ticket that I got, not the insurance hike! I went from paying 65 dollars on my insurance to 120! Not only that but she crashed my brand new Honda! To top it all off 2 months after that she dumped me.

This is why I think im so stupid and I know I shouldn’t be thinking about her at all. She would do things like that all the time. Ignore me, she would break things (necklaces, pictures of us, etc.) that I would give her, and just all around treat me like * * * * ! I just don’t want to think about her anymore. Im fine most of the time but then sometimes I start to think about her and I get scared that what if she looks for me (I doubt it because this time she even said she didn’t even miss me or want to be with me. Reason: unkown) and I end up believing her again. I don’t want that anymore. even this last time she asked me for $40 dlls and i know thats not a lot but she told me she didnt want to see me anymore and hasnt payed them back! Am I crazy? Was I traumatized by this girl? Whats wrong? Please help!

 

i havent contacted her and i dont intend to. its just things that rattles my brain and i want to get out. i found this site is good for venting and then people like you say things to get your mind straight. thank you.

[JB007]

Man does she sound crazy!! But, you two had three years worth of memories. It's normal to still think about her, but just don't forget about all the psycho acts she commited against you. That will be your reminder to stay away for good!

[ForumGuy]

Thinking the sex must have been good

[cereza]

wow! she is crazy! if you continue with her ur going to end up really bad...what you should do is start dating other woman who are nice and you'll see that one of them will make you forget the crazy one and later on you will be asking yourself how could you have like rose.