Bergk Posted August 23, 2011 Share Posted August 23, 2011 The constant struggle of dealing with the pain and regret I feel over my ex has become overbearing – despite my best efforts it takes priority on the present. Just sharing my thoughts with people that will listen will help me a great deal. My ex broke up with me around 10 months ago, via a phone call. I have not seen her again. We struggled with a long distance relationship, inexperience on both sides. A day after the break up, I tried to convince her to reconsider, as she seemed hesitant and unsure – another 24 hours passed and she said it was too late for her to turn back and expect me to forgive her. I have had online contact with her for one month several months ago, which brought me equal joy (as I was communicating with her again) as it did upset (as we were apart) – but even though she made the first contact, she abruptly ended the chance for friendship one day, feeling that it was too difficult because of our past. I lost my composure and said some things that I regret. The issue I mostly contend with is that during this contact she told me she regretted ending the relationship. In hindsight, I wondered if at this point she wanted me to try and put things right and take her back - but despite my desire to be with her once again I felt betrayed by her actions, had formed a negative view of her, and kept my inner most feelings to myself; possibly the reason why she cut me off was because I did not respond. I feel trapped. Bitter. I need to do -something-. I've considered for months whether or not to send her a small email; to wish her well – but I don't want to appear desperate/weak/even needy, or disrupt her if she is happy in her life. I feel very deflated. Thanks for reading. Link to comment
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