sgt pepper Posted August 20, 2011 Share Posted August 20, 2011 Hey guys I'm back after a long absence and a lot has happened since my last post. The "details list" format seems to work pretty well. I just need some input and all in all another perspective. here goes, I'll start off from the time of my last post: -ex is single -I am single and improving on myself in every aspect I can. -I try to ignore my feelings for my ex and keep moving on, giving the impression that I loathe her. -my room-mate is the old best-friend of my ex. -before you say anything, my ex betrayed her and now my roomy doesn't care for her too much. -we go to ex's place of work to get stuff (wal-mart). -my roomy comes out to me, in the car "I have proof that L will never get back with you!" she said with a smile,. - how? She was dating somebody new, apparently was just once. -my heart aches, all the pain i had ignored came all at once. -my eyes well up and I start to cry, all while driving out of the parking lot. -"C, I cant... keep lying to myself... I want her back! More than anything!" -she agrees to help me, help me find the right way to talk to her again and get my foot in the door. Fast forward 1 month -the tornado that ripped through Missouri? The one that killed 150+ people? Me and my ex are living in that town. -i was watching the tornado 3-4 blocks from my apartment. -on the radio it said that the tornado hit the wal-mart she was working at was hit directly by the tornado. -without thinking i head out the door and drive to her work to find it in ruins. -not knowing if shes alive or dead... I begin to dig, with my bare hands. Praying to god that she's still alive. -after about an hour i get to the tile. -no bodies, no ex, nothing. -i get back in my car, staining the interior with my bloody hand-prints and go to check my family if theyre ok. -i later learn that she was fine. -my roomy starts chatting with her. -she hears of what i did for her. After suing her and everything else. 1 week later: i get a message -"You were the only one that cared" -"I wish it'd go back to the way it was" -3 weeks we text daily -one day; nothing -i check my facebook -L is in a new relationship -she is in a relationship... with a satanist i remember from high school. -i text her, infuriated, "YOU WANTED TO TOY WITH ME?" -"IM THE ONLY ONE THAT * * * * IN CARED" -she says she's sorry and knew that the update would hurt me. -i ignore her. -"everybody told me about him so im not going to date him. Since your not around ill stay single, so be it. -i continue to ignore her -she gets angry and says that shes not worth talking to anyway. -i go to sleep wondering what she meant. 1 week later. -i text her, apologizing for what i said and explaining myself. Expressing my want for us to try again but slow. -"well you should just forget about me. we had love but it just went wrong somewhere" - i text her "ok if thats the way you want it. have a good life" -I look through my things and compile a box of her stuff she "forgot" -i drive to her parents house to drop it off. -shes there, my heart starts to race as i approach her -i park, get out, open the trunk, shove it in her chest. as quick as it took you to read this line. -"you had all this?" she said. "yeah, i figured you'd come get it eventually but you never did." - i drive off. leaving her there. -i still hear from people that she was flabbergasted about how i did it. 2 weeks later -i hear that she got back with the older, LDR guy. She said that i will always be her first love, but we will never be together again. -I... don't care, i take the news really well actually. -i continue to move on. -one day i go outta town to see some family. -my ex asks my roomy if she can come over and have "girl talk" (unbeknownst to me) -text: " i made her cry" -"what?" -My ex wanted to talk about me... for THREE (3) whole hours -my ex hears exactly what happened the night of the tornado. from start to finish. -she begins to cry. she leaves the apartment in tears. 3 days later (Aug/17/11): - i get a message asking how I am. That was 2 days ago(Aug/19/11). I haven't texted her back. she texts my roomy asking why i didn't respond As far as I'm concerned as long as she is with anyone, there is nothing for us to talk about. This is everything that happened so far. One day its we will never be together than shes weeping about me for a couple hours. I ask for your assistance. Thank you. Link to comment
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