CS98 Posted August 19, 2011 Share Posted August 19, 2011 So yesterday, I hung out with my ex for the first time since she dumped me. We dated for about two and a half years and had broken up at the very beginning of summer because we were kind of in a rough patch but had gotten back together in June. We dated for another month until she broke it off towards the end of July saying that I wasn't what she needed right now and that it's what she felt she had to do. It has been about a month since the break up and in that month I had not seen or talked to her since the day she broke up with me. At first I was hesitant when she asked if she could see me before she left for college but I knew I'd regret it if I didn't so we went out to lunch and after, talked for about two hours. Everything went really good and it was almost like we were still dating by the way we talked to each other and the stories we told. There were a few times when she cried or teared up that she blamed on hating goodbyes but also I could tell part of it was from feeling guilty about hurting me. I never once brought up our relationship or reconciliation because I know even if we did get back together at this point in time it would not be good for either of us because she is leaving for a college that is an hour and a half away, either today or tomorrow, and the first meeting after the breakup is not the time to throw my emotions in her face. After we hung out I texted her saying it was good to see her and that I hoped she had a good time in college and that I would see her around. The problem is, I still have so many feelings for her and would love to get back together but I could not tell what her feelings about us were during the hangout or when I texted her. I'm not the nagging, annoying type and I don't want to put added stress on her as she leaves to start school but I have been contemplating texting her again before she leaves letting her know how I feel. It's just hard because I do not get the time to work on getting her back since she is leaving and although yesterday's hangout didn't take me back to square one with my emotions, it did knock me back a few steps and is making it very difficult not to contact her again. Should I just be patient and let her contact me again even though she'll be gone or do I take some initiative? I'm just scared that the next time she does contact me will be strictly as a friend wondering how I'm doing. I could tell yesterday that she still had feelings for me but I do not know if she would ever consider having a relationship with me again. Link to comment
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