WindowTo Posted August 18, 2011 Share Posted August 18, 2011 I don't want to sound like a complainer, I am just scared of wasting my potential. Right now I am 3 years out of college and have had a good secure job in IT. I am not passionate about what I am doing right now, which kills me because I am very passionate about so many things. Furthermore I just got out of a relationship that was one big fart. We broke up and it wasn't that big a deal for either of us. I want to just be in love again. The problem in that area is twofold: 1. I live in an environment where I barely meet any new people let alone prospective dates (environment being married older friends), workplace full of older people as well, in a city with a social scene that I don't love. And 2. I am wary about looking for someone when I am on the verge of up and moving to god knows where to follow a career. Problem is that I cannot decide what career I want to pursue and it is killing me! I basically go in cycles now, throughout the year my interest jumps predictably from International Relations and Philosophy (want/wanted to work for the State Department or become a professor/go into acadamia) to staying with computer tech/IT (looking for a job with an actual IT or software company moving to Silocon Valley probably) to getting an MBA (opens many options will make good money, be able to use my good soft skills) to working in the video game industry ( a hobby that as much as I try to deny it entails work that is the least like work of anything even if the industry is hard, level design even game programming and project management is relatively fun). So I am just feeling lonely and stuck. I cannot choose because I am afraid I will regret going down one path, I have these interests that I feel strongly about but not consistently. I want to really spend time balancing my social and work life, but I am so concentrated on trying to figure out what I want to do career-wise so that I can focus my energies that I am just compelled to put other things on hold. Perhaps part of it is that I am a suburban kid, my biggest problem growing up was that I was bored and alone. My family story is very different, my parents came from Israel and grew up in war torn areas after world war 2 and throughout the birth of the nation of Israel. They had very decisive meaning and needs to fullfill with their direction, but nothing is really grabbing me in regards to work. I see amazing potential in all these areas for living a fullfilled life, but none of them seem to stand out from eachother. I despise indecisiveness, but I despise making decisions that I will regret as well. /vent Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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