Almost 23 and No Dates

[OahuGrown808]

Alrighty, it's been 2 years since I've been on this forum and I feel like it's time for an update. Sorry for dredging up an ancient post, but I figure it makes more sense to continue my post here so whoever decides to read it can get the whole story from the beginning.

 

So, I decided to join a free online dating site in the past year and I'm glad to say that I've had 2 legitimate dates! I don't talk to this girl anymore because I didn't feel a spark between us. But it felt pretty liberating nonetheless. I don't claim to have the best radar when it comes to picking up female hints, but I'm pretty sure she was into me (playful hitting, finding excuses to touch me, laughing at my jokes). Even though it didn't turn into anything more than a few dates, I definitely came away from the whole experience feeling more confident.

 

I've grown a ton in the past two years, and I feel most of it has come from me leaving my comfort bubble and finally committing to my career. It has given me a purpose, and has nearly dragged me out from under the dark cloud that has followed me around since my adolescence. Not to mention that my job keeps me so busy that I don't have a whole lot of time to think about being single. I've also taken an interest in fitness and have managed to drop about 23 lbs and put on more muscle.

 

However, my journey to find confidence and love is far from over. I still sometimes dwell on my single-hood, and tell myself that I'm not good enough to be with someone. I still avoid contact with attractive women because I get intimidated easily. And I haven't been able to get a date since my last two about 6 months ago, either online or not. Additionally, though I technically have dating experience now, I still have yet to kiss a girl or have any sort of sexual contact. Now that I'm 25, this has become even more distressing than ever. I feel like no girl ever shows any interest in me, even though this directly conflicts with my experience on my dates. Maybe I mean most girls, not all. I also would like to meet someone in person, rather than online, because some of the profiles are pretty misleading.

 

Anyway, Just thought I'd share what's been going on with my life so far. I've got to say that even though I have a long way to go, the prospect of meeting an amazing girl is pretty exciting. Romantic relationships and all that come with them are like an unexplored frontier - exciting and scary at the same time. But hey, maybe I'll have some better news to post up soon. Just the fact that I can type that last sentence is a good sign that I'm starting to believe in myself a little more.