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I'm disgusted with my life. I'm so depressed right now. I feel like there's nothing I can do about my life and I'll always be stuck in the situation I'm in.


Back story to all of this: I'm 20, I have a 4 month old son and a fiance. I love them both more than anyone could imagine. However, I do have times I really regret having my son, as horrible as that sounds. I'm so in love with my fiance but he just doesn't help me with my feelings.


We didn't 100% plan on having our son. I honestly didn't think I could get pregnant but we were hoping we could. We didn't think things out and I feel so stupid for all of it.


I have no friends and no life. It's not because of my son though. All of my friends either ditch me for new friends or move. I was invited to go to an amusement park with my "friend" when we were at her boyfriend's birthday party. She said she'll text me when she knows the date they're going. I found out through facebook that she already set a date and told everyone when they were going. She texted me for my birthday. I asked her what she was going to do for her's. She then told me I was still invited to go. And then I said I couldn't drive, she told me she'll see if she has room in the car and will get back to me. So far, she hasn't. But this is how it always is. I'm always left out.


But now that I have my son, I can't go off to college and start a new life and actually try to be happy. I hate my life so much. I hate saying I regret my son. It's not his fault at all. He's not even the real reason my life sucks. I live with my parents and I don't have a car or a job because I don't have a car. I'm locked up in my house everyday all day and I'm going crazy. I feel like breaking down and crying all the time now.

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Will your parents help you with child care if you took a job? Even if this could be arranged for just a little while it would give you the opportunity to get a job so you could pay for a car. This is if there is bus transportation where you live

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Have you looked into resources for post-partum depression? I realize it won't solve the fundamental issues around wanting to go to college, wanting transportation, etc, but I think many of the sad feelings you're having are very common among new mothers. Do you have health insurance? Your providers might be able to help.

I'm really sorry you're going through this. Hang in there.

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I agree with Wocka - you need to look into post partum depression issues.


I'm sorry for the situation you are in - not thinking the whole pregnancy and baby issue through but now that your little one is here just remember that they are counting on you! Take care of yourself and make sure you discuss these feelings with your doctor. There is help and hope!



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