How do I light that fire again?

[angelito18]

19 years I've been living on this Earth and within those years I've been through and seen a lot. I've grown and developed so much and I know that with every year comes a new lesson learned a little bit of wisdom. And at some point in time I lost my way. When I was a kid I was such a dreamer, I always fantasized of a different life I mean who doesn't, and I was so determined (not to mention naive) to make those fantasies and dreams come true. I always stayed true to the cause and fought for what I wanted. And up until recently, after much maturing and growing, my dreams and fantasies CAN be reality. I've come a long way to get that point where I don't have to wonder if everything I want, could I have it or not. I've got a golden opportunity and for some reason im letting it slip away. You know for so long I've been trying to break free of who I was [who I still am] and become the person I know I'm supposed to be, the person I've always wanted to be in every way, but little did I know I've been forgetting that person that had so much fire and passion and dedication, and if I don't find him again, there's no way I can move on and be who I'm supposed to be. And I feel that old part of me trying to resurface but can't exactly seem to reach it. There was only at one time did I even feel that fire and that was when I thought I was in love. That one person awakened that passion that lived deep inside me and I felt like I could do anything. Well they're gone and I don't see them coming back to help. So I'm on my own. But before then I had that fire and now I just want it back, I need it back....so much depends on me getting back that passion, but how and where to start...I have no idea what-so-ever.

[TwelveThirty]

What does your parents mean to you? How about Sylvester Stallone? I think you might be looking for a model, and this model can be anyone. It can be any belief.

How about your career?

What are your hobbies?

Favorite book?

 

Do you enjoy helping others?

Questions, questions... because it's about putting the finger on the exact right piece of information, right? Well, have you noticed that in your description of your problem, there is nothing too specific...

 

So, in conclusion, I'm going to summarize this all for you in only one question. What is the meaning of "passion"? Give me your best shot.

Okie-doki?

[Silverbirch]

Thank you, you just reminded me of something I forgot about - the arts and nature . . . well I didn't really forget nature. Read this and let me know if you feel any better:

 

"I Wandered Lonely as a Cloud" - by William Wordsworth

 

I wandered lonely as a cloud

That floats on high o'er vales and hills,

When all at once I saw a crowd,

A host, of golden daffodils;

Beside the lake, beneath the trees,

Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

 

Continuous as the stars that shine

And twinkle on the milky way,

They stretched in never-ending line

Along the margin of a bay:

Ten thousand saw I at a glance,

Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

 

The waves beside them danced; but they

Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:

A poet could not but be gay,

In such a jocund company:

I gazed---and gazed---but little thought

What wealth the show to me had brought:

 

For oft, when on my couch I lie

In vacant or in pensive mood,

They flash upon that inward eye

Which is the bliss of solitude;

And then my heart with pleasure fills,

And dances with the daffodils.

[catfeeder]

It's easy to form lofty goals while living in the comfort of a place and time that makes it impossible to reach them.

 

When we're in school we can project a great experience onto the future while knowing we're protected from any attempts to get there until we graduate. Once there are no barriers we can point to that prevent us from taking risks, the only barrier that remains is fear.

 

Consider what you're afraid of, and then invent a Plan B for what you'd do if your risk fails. Then you've got the mental safety net to help you take some risks--and that can inspire you to take bigger risks down the road.

 

Why not tell us your opportunity, then explain the fears holding you back from it?

[angelito18]

It's easy to form lofty goals while living in the comfort of a place and time that makes it impossible to reach them.

 

When we're in school we can project a great experience onto the future while knowing we're protected from any attempts to get there until we graduate. Once there are no barriers we can point to that prevent us from taking risks, the only barrier that remains is fear.

 

Consider what you're afraid of, and then invent a Plan B for what you'd do if your risk fails. Then you've got the mental safety net to help you take some risks--and that can inspire you to take bigger risks down the road.

 

Why not tell us your opportunity, then explain the fears holding you back from it?

 

Honestly I don't know what I'm afraid of, and even at that I used to never let anything like that stop me ya know. And the opportunity is everything. I've been dreaming about having a new life and leaving my city my whole life, well now that's a possibility for me now. Once upon a time I dedicated my life to music, and now I have the opportunity to go the next step I can the resources I need to make it, same with dancing, so many doors that can be opened for me. I've got the chance to be who I want to be both physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, etc. I have a once and a lifetime chance to change my life and live it like how most people would dream about, and yet i can't find that determination that I used to have and I need it. This opportunity is not exactly in my hands there's still more on my part to grab but it's in front of me. It's like I'm one side of a mountain and this life of what could be is on the other but there's a huge gap in between and I would have to take a big leap, but I'm just stuck there while every second I'm stuck there the opportunity fades away. A couple of years ago I wouldve leaped in no time.

[angelito18]

What does your parents mean to you? How about Sylvester Stallone? I think you might be looking for a model, and this model can be anyone. It can be any belief.

How about your career?

What are your hobbies?

Favorite book?

 

Do you enjoy helping others?

Questions, questions... because it's about putting the finger on the exact right piece of information, right? Well, have you noticed that in your description of your problem, there is nothing too specific...

 

So, in conclusion, I'm going to summarize this all for you in only one question. What is the meaning of "passion"? Give me your best shot.

Okie-doki?

 

Idk, I guess what it used to mean to me just an insane desire that you'd do anything to fulfill. I don't know it's really hard to explain it. Passion to me was going through any and everything you had to while still keeping your eye on the prize and going for what you want, not sitting it around, but making it happen. Passion is like the fuel you need to keep going and keep fighting.

[catfeeder]

This sounds great, but it's all a bunch of abstractions. What, exactly, is the opportunity, and what, exactly, are the steps you need to take if you want to go for it?

 

If you put your steps down in a 'to do' list, that makes it easier to identify what you can do, and what piece or pieces of that puzzle are a hurdle for you. From there we might be able to help.

[angelito18]

This sounds great, but it's all a bunch of abstractions. What, exactly, is the opportunity, and what, exactly, are the steps you need to take if you want to go for it?

 

If you put your steps down in a 'to do' list, that makes it easier to identify what you can do, and what piece or pieces of that puzzle are a hurdle for you. From there we might be able to help.

 

You want a more specific explanation when the abstract is really all it is. There's nothing too specific about it it's just as I said an opportunity to change everything. And as far as the steps, I can't really go into it, but that's not the problem. I'm more than capable to do what I have to do and "jumping", it's just fiding the energy and motivation to do so. That's the problem. I'm not motivated, I'm not inspired, I'm not passionate about it, I want it, but that desire isnt fueling enough. For lack of a better metaphoric expression...I need find that fire, to find the passion, and then, only then can I go for it.

[Nymeria]

You are 19. This whole "old" me "the me I want to be" is BS. I went through that myself. What you end up realizing is that that old you and the new you is...you. When you imagine who you are going to be you always forget that that person is going to have experienced everything you have. Take the opportunity even if you have to drag yourself and don't want to do because that is what true dedication is. You said you wanted it and its there. Take it or never know what could have happened if you did.