Tired of Life

[gamergirl22]

I have seriously considered taking my life. Life is sheer hell for me. Im 15 and transgender and have barely any friends. Everywhere i go everyone hates me and makes fun of me everyday. My parents dont listen to me, I tell them i hate life but they dont believe me. They dont believe me when i say everyone hates me. They dont understand me at all. Every night i got to sleep thinking tomorrow is going to get better but it's worse then the next day. I never have good days and im constantly unhappy. My only friend that knows keeps telling me to tell someone but no listens. My parents are anti-trans and wouldn't accept me. I hate myself as well. I dont look female at all and growing too tall. I wish this pain would stop but it doesn't. I also have no dreams or expectations, I figured i wouldnt live past 21 so i have no future plans. As you can read my life really sucks. All i really want is someone to talk to. Because i'm really tired of life right now

[BrokenSmile]

I'm so sorry to hear about what you're going through. Is there anyone you can talk to about this outside of your family/friend? Such as a therapist? Talking to someone might seriously be able to help you. Please know that teenage years are really tough, and life does get better, even if it doesn't feel like it ever will right now.

[Kellum23]

Ok honestly i have been in your shoes im 17 and in 8th grade i was contimplating suicide and thank god i didnt because in less then a year i completley changed my veiws on this. I need to no somethings before i can help how long has it been u felt this why or what has made you want to besides everyone Making fun of you just cant let them get to u but please let me help you

[Capricorn3]

Try googling support groups for transgenders - there are many of them around.

[chitown9]

Are you attending high school? If you are, I suggest making an appointment with the student counselor and explain to him exactly what you explained to us.

[Kitkat973]

Life is hell right now, but it's finite. You're fifteen. Three years sounds impossible from that side of things, but it's three years until you have your ticket out.

 

Find the small things to live for. For awhile, books were part of what kept me alive. Looking at a series I was reading and realizing that if I did it I'd never know the end helped me keep going for a little bit longer. Small pleasures. Sunshine, good chocolate, a song- they're tiny things and they don't make the pain go away, but they can be enough to keep you breathing just a little bit longer, keep you focused.

 

Take it one day at a time. Try talking to your school counselor, if you think that'd help. Try hotlines.

 

It does get better.

[DoGGYtREAts]

Also if you have helath insurance most cover Mental health services, If your reluctant to involve your folks you can ask your doctor for a referal to a counselor/Therapist on your Plan. They can really help alot. Anything you wish to discuss them is protected by confidentiality laws.