I finally did it

[Danny77]

Well it's been a tough few months folks, that I can tell you.

It may have been the worst months in my 33 years of life and it was all due to Facebook.

Yes that's right, Facebook.

That little computer program that let's you keep in contact with friends and delay you from moving on with your life in EVERY way.

 

So, today I went to her (unfriended) profile to stare longingly at her picture and look at the past profile pics of her including the ONE where we are together and so in love.

As I browsed through I noticed that IT WAS GONE!

She had deleted it, just that one.

I know why.

She is probably upset that I didn't wish her a happy birthday the other day. (previous thread "is this childish")

This must have hurt her which is not what I wanted to achieve but I felt too weak to contact her even to wish HBirthday so I made the decision not to.

 

She is a smart girl and I know that although we are not FB friends (due to me) we still looked at each others profiles as whenever I changed my pic, low and behold the same day she changed hers.

It was becoming a little silly as I felt she was trying to let me know she was doing fine by putting up her travelling pics and looking good.

In my expierence, when people try to look like theyre doing fine they are usually not.

 

So today after seeing that she deleted that pic knowing that I'd see it, it made me realize that she's a bit bitter about my NC which has been flawless since the breakup.

If she wanted to erase me from her life she would've deleted or untagged all the pics of us in my pics too but she didn't.

She just deleted that ONE knowing I'd see it, and maybe come crawling back to contact her.

 

WELL GUESS WHAT?

I WILL NOT BE MADE TO CRAWL FOR ANYONE!

 

I spent the last year on my effing knees trying to please her and putting up with her selfish ways.

 

Today I blocked her and all of her friends.

It took me 30mins to do and will last a lifetime.

 

I will no longer panic when I get home to check to see if she's changed her pic or there's some cryptic clue or comment for me to read.

I will no longer want to come home early when I'm out in fear that I might miss something she's done on FB.

I will no longer have that feeling of despair when I see a crappy photoshopped picture of her trying to look like she's having as much fun as possible.

I will no longer spend the night checking it every 30mins to see if she's awake or active.

 

I felt better when I changed my number.

I felt better when I unfriended her.

 

But I still had this small piece of breadcrumb that I was holding on to for over 2 months and I was wondering why I'm still not healing as quick as I thought I would.

 

It was all due to facebook in the end.

 

Yeh I'll still be sad, I'll still cry, but, I'll have no new information to pile on top of my already heavy heart.

 

This is for all of you that have not done it yet and are wondering why you still feel bad.

You have had a rough time right?

It's horrible I know.

Why why why why why would you add anything extra to this pain?

Looking for scraps on unfriended profiles is a terrible set back.

 

Anyone out there wanting to do it but is having a hard time with it (and I know there are some coz I read the posts) (you know who you are)

DO IT NOW!

don't wait.

 

 

Peace and love to you all.

 

I FINALLY DID IT.

[Carus]

Heh....BookFace was the first thing to go for me....skype was the last....

 

And all for the reasons you pointed out above...It does one no good to keep going back to those things to check the ex....

 

If you need to delete these things (which 99% of us do) then you should....Much later down the track when you are properly healed, opening up lines of communication again is as easy as shutting them off anyway*

 

I read strength in your post Danny...It's good to see.

 

Ever Forward

Carus* 8-)

[Zuri]

First thing I did was BLOCK my ex from every angle. He cant even text or call. The way AT&T works is I can't text or call numbers I've blocked either. Even told my family to not tell me if they hear ANYTHING from him. Of course, it doesn't feel like its helping. It hurts. It hurts BADLY. I'm still in love with him. I hope NC really catatyzes the healing. I can't imagine another man touching me. Well, can't imagine wanting another man to touch me. That disturbs me. Lol.

[Danny77]

First thing I did was BLOCK my ex from every angle. He cant even text or call. The way AT&T works is I can't text or call numbers I've blocked either. Even told my family to not tell me if they hear ANYTHING from him. Of course, it doesn't feel like its helping. It hurts. It hurts BADLY. I'm still in love with him. I hope NC really catatyzes the healing. I can't imagine another man touching me. Well, can't imagine wanting another man to touch me. That disturbs me. Lol.

 

 

Right,

So imagine how bad it would be to still have contact right now.

It has done you more good than you know.

[Zuri]

I really need to keep hearing that. Thank you.

[nsomnia912]

Good for you! I just deleted my own fb...and went on a spree throwing everything out.. gave away all gifts..

My tv gave to my mom...my xbox and games I gave to a couple with kids...the kids wanted xbox, bit they coulndt afford...I showed up with it and said here ya go....

And donating all clothing to goodwill.....

It felt goodx I was gettig rid of my past and doing a good deed at same time.

 

Deleting every pic with her in it...

 

It's as if she was never there! It's has done wonders for healing

[MyNinja]

Like the saying goes, "Out of sight, out of mind"

 

Until we meet again...

[blackhawks1287]

Deleting every pic with her in it...

I DID THIS SAME DAY, and packed up all of her stuff and sent it to her...I know it hurt her deep down too because she is the type of girl to hang on to memorabilia of past relationships...

 

I still have yet to reblock them, even when her friends tested me on facebook (her essentially) to see of I was bitter or willing to let them back in.

 

I was indifferent, optimistic, but indifferent and have yet to block them, but I have changed my settings to where random people cannot send me messages

 

Good job Danny, I and everyone else is proud of you buddy!.

[replytome]

Good for you! I just deleted my own fb...and went on a spree throwing everything out.. gave away all gifts..

My tv gave to my mom...my xbox and games I gave to a couple with kids...the kids wanted xbox, bit they coulndt afford...I showed up with it and said here ya go....

And donating all clothing to goodwill.....

It felt goodx I was gettig rid of my past and doing a good deed at same time.

 

Deleting every pic with her in it...

 

It's as if she was never there! It's has done wonders for healing

 

Damn it!! I should have given my Xbox to some kids! Instead I sold it...

 

I really regret it now, I love making people happy! It's the best feeling in the world, every christmas and birthday, I ask for cash and then donate it all to charities. That's the only thing that makes me happy on those ''joyous'' occasions.