I'm thankful for the memories... :)

[rediscovering]

I can say this now with a smile on my face, five weeks into our BU.

 

You are truly an amazing guy and I was blessed to have been a part of your life, albeit it was a short time. You were my first love, my first real relationship and I'm glad because while we have broken up, you were really a nice guy and I'm glad I spent these months with you making memories despite of all the bad that had happened. We were just incompatible and life just got in the way.

 

Truthfully, there are a lot of things I regret and if I could, I would undo most of my mistakes if it meant that I would have you back in my arms. However, it is what it is now and I am just accepting my faults, forgiving myself and you, and trying to become a better person for myself. You taught me a lot and I will take what I gained as lessons learned.

 

We had a passionate love and I'm happy we broke up, truly. It showed me that I should never take another person for granted and that I should discover who I am, my own happiness and independence before I dive into love... because I didn't love myself and therefore, I couldn't love you whole-heartedly while you gave me your all.

 

Like I said, during our relationship, I had wished we met later in life because you were the type of person I wanted to spend my life with and I knew I was going to make mistakes. But things happen for a reason and some things fall apart so better things can fall together.

 

The future is uncertain, but I will move on and heal. Will I harbor hope for you and I? In some ways, I feel like I should, but it doesn't mean that I am not letting you go. Letting you is a part of my love and if someday, we reconnect in our lives years down the road, then we'll see where it goes. If we never connect again, I will be fine with that as well.

 

So thank you, thank you, thank you. You made me realize I am a prize and I am worth it in the end. Even if it meant losing you and losing your love, I am honestly blessed for all of the valuable lessons I have gained.

 

 

If anyone else is at this stage, it feels great, doesn't it?! I'm really accepting it all and letting it go.