pregnant, alone and in need of advice

[alo88]

I started dating my ex-boyfriend earlier this year everything was great but we had a huge problem, his psychotic ex girlfirend (who he has a daughter with), she did everything in her power to break us up, threatened both him and me, stole my cell phone, claimed she was still seeing him etc etc etc. A few months later my ex-broke up with me mainly because of all the drama that his baby's mother had been causing and because his feelings for me seemed to have went away.I was brokenhearted because I stood by him with all of his drama and because I felt like she had gotten what she wanted all along, not to see us together, but I knew that if he simply didnt feel that way towards me then as hard as it is I couldnt change that and I would have to move on, so I started trying to move on with my life and get over him but a few weeks later I found out that Im pregnant with his baby. I didnt know how to react because he had just broken up with me so I wasnt expecting him to be thrilled with the news. After breaking the news to him he didnt have much to say besides that he didnt want another baby and I should get an abortion I was hurt when he suggested I get an abortion but I knew that wasnt what I wanted to do, though I still wanted to be with him I decided to keep the baby because I feel like its the right thing to do, not to keep a man around, but because it was what I felt is right. So after some time it seemed like he had finally accepted the pregnancy and he said he would be there for the baby and we would take things slow and see what happens between us. When I thought everything would be ok he dropped a bomb on me, He text me saying that he had to confess that he still has feelings for his ex (the psychopath) and that he wasnt sure who he wants to be with and he feels like he has to choose a family which is too hard for him to do. I was devestated hearing this because I never stopped loving him and I love him even more since I am carrying his child, and the thought of him possibly getting back with his ex is more than my heart can bear I've never felt so low and depressed and this is supposed to be a happy and amazing experience for me, Now im thinking about how our relationship will be once the pregnancy gets further along and the baby is here I dont know if I will be able to handle seeing him and if he gets back with his ex I wont allow her to be around my kid because she is out of her mind and I dont trust it, he goes to doctors appts with me and thats about it and he says he will be there when the baby is here but right now it seems impossible to be around him because of all the hurt and the fact that I still love him and I dont feel like I can move on cause Im pregnant with his baby...HELP!

[honestly4u]

You have made your choice and you will have to live with it....with or without him (probably without him). I would get used to the fact that he is not going to be around and figure out real fast how you are going to raise this child on your own. A harsh reality...but such a common story really. Good luck to you.