I miss her so much, There could be a New YorK times best seller about us. help!?

[No1her]

i sent her an email last saturday, no reply, i texted her once or twice a few days before that. i have made no attempts since. the last i heard from her was a hate tirade thru text upon waking up 13 days ago. it was b/c i told her boyfriend again, with a text convo proof, that she cheated on him again. which is why i got the hate text. Idk if she really does hate me, but it hurts to think she may. she did it to herself, and she dug her own grave, and realistically she probly dosent hate me, shes was prob just mad. she always told me no matter what she would never hate me.

 

our relationship was unhealthy. it was filled with jealousy, no trust, accusations, and constant arguing. I thought wed grow out of it. we never did. i always put her first, i always was there for her, and idk shes admitted she started most of the fights. she undoubtabely loved me to death, and vis versa. and i hate to say it but she really was/is crazy. she sees a therapist now. It hurts to even say it b/c of how much she means to me, but she has alotttt of things she needs to work on. she kind of is crazy : (

 

i think one of the problems was we were to alike. both raised in yelling households, both high strung, and bad tempered. idk if i was to young or what. i shoulda have been able to handle it no matter what, but i couldnt. it just hurts sooo bad

[dramallama]

No contact will help you find yourself again and reflect on what you want in a relationship for the future. It will help you a lot.

[No1her]

naturally i meet my bro for a drink and i see her with him on friday night. i just acted like she wasnt there, made eye contact once. at one point just before the eye contact or before im not sure. I caught a look on her face like : / kindof a bittersweet look i guess u could say, it meant i bought him that shirt, i miss him, or he looks good. i know that look because ive seen it before. i believe that when ur with someone long enough, u truly do know them inside and out. Then again it could also have been b/c i was talking to the cute bartender. who knows, but i atleast hope i find someone b4 her and him get to serious... if they ever do.

[dramallama]

You've got to get out of this mindset that you NEED to find someone else. You don't. You need to learn to be happy with yourself and figure out what you want in a relationship and learn to be happy and single. It's not a competition between you and your ex. I would avoid mutual places where you could bump into her at least for the next few months, but you handled yourself well in this case.

[No1her]

kinda annoyed today b/c my best friennds g/f who hes marrying in 4 months and who im the best man for, continues to hang out with the ex. I strictly asked her to not hang with her, not only that i dont talk to my buddys exs or anyone his gf has a prob with out of respect. she even asked me to not talk to her friends, b/c of some dumb reason that she thinks it would cause dramatics between herself(buddys girl) and my ex, just b/c its her friend. so im definitely a little annoyed. I just hate the fact that they live soo close to one another. theres nothing i can do to stop this.

[dramallama]

kinda annoyed today b/c my best friennds g/f who hes marrying in 4 months and who im the best man for, continues to hang out with the ex. I strictly asked her to not hang with her, not only that i dont talk to my buddys exs or anyone his gf has a prob with out of respect. she even asked me to not talk to her friends, b/c of some dumb reason that she thinks it would cause dramatics between herself(buddys girl) and my ex, just b/c its her friend. so im definitely a little annoyed. I just hate the fact that they live soo close to one another. theres nothing i can do to stop this.

Nor should there be. Your ex and your best friend's girlfriend have the right to hang out with one another if they wish. To tell either of them who they can and cannot hang out with is controlling.

[No1her]

now u know one of my problems when i was in the relationship i guess : (

[dramallama]

What problem would that be?

[No1her]

i was a tad bit controlling, but when a relationship has trusdt problems like ours did, (not b/c of me, b/c of her) and when u do everything for them and arent really appreciated, i think that tends to happen, right? dosent mean its right tho.