Just Ranting

[sadandalone]

I just want to forget all of it.......I don't know how to let go of what I thought we had.....I want him to hurt like I do, but I worry that he won't or won't even feel anything now that he has left.....

 

Sorry to much going on in my mind...want to be hateful, but to old to know that it doesn't matter.....

[guynextdoor]

Sadandalone, lets not worry about him. If he's hurt or happy its none of our business. Its time to focus on yourself to make you a better person. Hatred and wanting him to hurt isn't going to make you a better person would it? Feel free to blow off some steam here. We're all ears..

[sadandalone]

Today is really bad.....can't seem to get him off my mind....wondering what he is doing....anxiety is going through the roof right now.......just want to feel better about all of it and my part I playing in getting us to where we are right now and hopefully getting to the point of accepting that it is over...(still seems really far away as all I can think of is wanting him back and wanting to talk to him..) He told me last night that and I quote "We are done for NOW, I can't do this, its to much"......and I keep going over that and over that in my head wondering what that means......

 

Just needed to vent, can't seem to get him off my mind....

[sadandalone]

Should I just give up?

[sadandalone]

Is there anyone out there that has had anything similar that can please help me today?.....I just need to feel like someone is reading what I say even if it doesn't make any sense as to why I am doing what I am doing.....or feeling how I am....