I miss him more than anything else ..

[NewMee]

It has been nearly two months since we have broken up .. It was a bad break up .. lots of fights and arguments over silly and stupid things.

We have been together only for 6 months but it felt like 6 years ..

 

I'm fine now .. putting all my efforts to move on .. I'm working on it day and night .. I finally accepted the break up and I know for sure he will not come back. I have given all hope that he will come back

He hasn't contacted me since the break up and the last email I send him was 7 weeks ago.. We both are in NO CONTACT.

 

Anyway .. I'm socializing more .. focusing on my studies and everything .. but some nights are harder than others ..

 

My question is .. Why do I still miss him? Do I still love him ? or is it because he rejected me and I didn't get my closure?

 

I miss him .. words can't express how much I miss him .. It makes me weak .. It makes me crazy .. I just wanna send him an email or go to his house and see him ..

 

I try to convince myself that he doesn't love me and never did in the first place .. I try so hard to convince my mind and my heart that I'm better off without him .. but I couldn't ..

 

I tried meeting new people .. but it didn't work out at all ..

 

I WANT HIM .. It's like a drug .. a bad addiction ..

 

I don't know what to do .. I'm tried of fighting ..

 

Is this normal ? When will I stop missing him ?

 

I can see from people experience that it sometimes takes you years to get over your first love? he was my first in everything ..

 

I have all my family and my friends supporting me in this .. I'm making myself busy all the time .. but it doesn't work ..

 

I feel like my heart has been ripped off my chest .. and the feeling gets worse when I wake up in the morning

 

I need your advice

[nsomnia912]

Im right there, its hard. bad break up! wrong things said, done. you know the other is just toxic for you, and every morning you wake up thinking, and immediately start re-analyzing everything, like maybe you missed something. toss and turn at night, the anxiety.. your world is not your world anymore.

 

Im in the trenches with you, I cannot let go... i just cant, she used me, lied to me, played me, manipulated me, she was securing things with a new guy before letting me go.... just heartbreaking,

 

keep it up, be social and work on you, read and post, learn and grow, i know the first love is hard... everyone has been there! and its true, you never forget your first love.

 

but hang in there!!!! it'll pass

[NewMee]

Im right there, its hard. bad break up! wrong things said, done. you know the other is just toxic for you, and every morning you wake up thinking, and immediately start re-analyzing everything, like maybe you missed something. toss and turn at night, the anxiety.. your world is not your world anymore.

 

Im in the trenches with you, I cannot let go... i just cant, she used me, lied to me, played me, manipulated me, she was securing things with a new guy before letting me go.... just heartbreaking,

 

keep it up, be social and work on you, read and post, learn and grow, i know the first love is hard... everyone has been there! and its true, you never forget your first love.

 

but hang in there!!!! it'll pass

 

One thing that kept me going knowing that I'm not alone .. Millions of people are in the same situation or maybe worse ..

 

His birthday is coming up in few weeks .. I'm thinking of sending him a gift .. Would that be wrong?

It's clear that he moved on and doesn't want anything to do with me .. but I just want to tell him that I still think about him and I'm sorry for the bad things I did.

[guynextdoor]

Yeah I would not send him a gift, whats the point? He is an ex, use that money for yourself.

[scarlett27]

its totally normal please get a book called - its called abreakup coz its broken " its brilliant , its normal , u miss the rountine , the comfort of having someone all that , but u need to focus on u , i wake up everymorning with knots in my stomach but also a feeling that wow i can meet someone that is more worthy of me x

[apple89]

im the exact same situation for me ti was a similar story.. but as long as you keep 100% nc and that means no Facebook no phone no nothing where you wont find out anything about him, it will be fine little by little it gets better

[nekoxchaos]

we often feel that if we hang around more they will appreciate us or we have a better chance at winning them back, but usually that means we are putting our life on the hold and delaying the healing process. reading your post reminded me of how bad it was post-breakup because I remember I would write journal enteries that sounded similar .... but then you realize it is just a phase, we get used to having someone in our life so its common to miss them.

 

it takes a while to not miss someone but we only let our self down because we forget how important our feelings and well being are , and its not worth the energy pining for someone who we know will not reciprocate the same feelings . Time does heal though ! so you have to be strong for yourself

[rkw]

I find I miss the good parts of my ex quite a bit, and I really miss our friendship. Even though he lied to me and was quite heartless at the end, I still miss him some days so much that it's nearly unbearable. Last week and the week before were really bad for pining, but I can tell you that it's lessened over the last few days which tells me this is just temporary. I'm sure it will be for you as well. Just stay strong, maintain NC and keep focusing on your own life and it should settle down soon.