MrD90 Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 I messed up and I hate myself for it I really don't want to go on anymore Link to comment
Tique Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 Whatever you did it's not the end of the world. People make mistakes. It's what makes us human. Link to comment
mouseno4 Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 Whatever you did. I can guarantee it is NOTHING in the grand scheme of things. Link to comment
dramallama Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 What happened? Perhaps one of us have been there already... Link to comment
hausser Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 Nah mouse is right and your family will have to live in shame for the rest of their lives, I should know my grandfather took his own life (before I was born) and my nan and dad are still way way too cut up to talk about it even now (they don't know I know) * * * * , first time I ever told anyone that lol. Link to comment
mouseno4 Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 What happened? Perhaps one of us have been there already... I have. But nothing i say will mean anything. I know that. Link to comment
MrD90 Posted June 9, 2011 Author Share Posted June 9, 2011 To make a long story short I pushed away the greatest thing that's ever happened to me lied to get her back and I came out and told the truth hoping she would see I mean well bit nope we are done I gave this my all and now im looking for a away to end it in my sleep Link to comment
dramallama Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 How did you push your ex away? What did you lie to her about? Link to comment
ToF Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 To make a long story short I pushed away the greatest thing that's ever happened to me lied to get her back and I came out and told the truth hoping she would see I mean well bit nope we are done I gave this my all and now im looking for a away to end it in my sleep Why is this a reason to end your life? Link to comment
alli Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 Not to sound like a broken record but I hope you don't. I don't know you but I don't want you to give up the rest of your long life because things are tough right now. Things will change. Maybe not with her specifically, but don't cheat yourself out of your life. Link to comment
MrD90 Posted June 9, 2011 Author Share Posted June 9, 2011 I hit her she wanted to avoid me so when she took a pregnancy test I found away to get it off so o ended up swapping 2 test the.3rd she was really pregnant then we had a early miss carrige it was eating me up so I told her I know im a bad person the world would be alot better without me Link to comment
dramallama Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 Wouldn't you want her to leave you? She has done what is best for yourself. And you must do what is best for yourself as well, which is addressing the issues that made you hit someone else. It isn't worth killing yourself over though. Everyone makes mistakes. Link to comment
curious11 Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 There is nothing more painful the bein heart sick... I'd rather drop 200lbs on my toes and cut off a finger... but def not worth a life! I've felt the way you feel now. Once before and I'm so glad I didn't because I found another girl I loved even more. You'll get through it. Be strong and I can garentee when some time passes you'll be a better man. Link to comment
alli Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 Live and learn. You might not be able to mend your relationship with her, but you certainly learned something from it which will help you make better choices in your next relationship. So you swapped the tests... I'm not really sure what benefit that was to you to have her believe she wasn't pregnant when she was. Obviously she would have found out pretty quick anyway. And the miscarriage wasn't anyone's fault. So did your actions really make a difference in this situation? Regarding hitting her, that's never a good idea. It doesn't mean you deserve the death penalty. I'd talk to someone about it. Try to rope in that anger. Link to comment
FairyGodmother Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 Things always look better in the morning... maybe just go to sleep (NORMALLY, NOT AS A EUPHEMISM FOR DEATH) and when you get up in the morning you'll have a brand new set of eyes to look at the situation. There's always something to be learned from our mistakes. Link to comment
mouseno4 Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 Yes. You did the wrong thing. Yes, you hit her. Yes, she will probably hate you for it. Do you regret doing it? Do you think she deserved it? If you regret doing it - you are already better than you think you are. You KNOW right from wrong. There are some people in this world who DONT. You are not one of them. Do you think she deserved it? If not, then again - you are already better person for thinking that way. There is no law that states someone who has hit another deserves death, so there is no reason to end it yourself. It is far better to KNOW you were wrong, and LEARN from your mistakes than to simply cross your arms and say 'i give up'. Being able to rise above your failures in life and strive to become MORE than you think you are... that takes COURAGE. Link to comment
MrD90 Posted June 9, 2011 Author Share Posted June 9, 2011 The reason I did it is I felt the baby would make her open herself up to.me and she dis but after the mis carrige it eat me up im such a bad person. And im going to just dobit tonight i don't want to make it loud so im trying to do it in my sleep Link to comment
MrD90 Posted June 9, 2011 Author Share Posted June 9, 2011 I have a session at 130 tomorrow I just don't think I can make it tonight Link to comment
mouseno4 Posted June 9, 2011 Share Posted June 9, 2011 Go to bed. Think about how you feel right now. Spend the night in bed. Whilst you are in bed, clear your head. Try to think of nothing. Empty every thought in your head so all you hear, all you know, is silence. When you close your eyes, focus on the darkness. Only focus on the darkness. When you wake up the next morning, get out of bed early and then start to think about things. At least give yourself the chance for sleep. Link to comment
MrD90 Posted June 9, 2011 Author Share Posted June 9, 2011 Im with her now weblive together we spent today together and now she ia walking around naked Link to comment
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