How am I doing?

[irishgerry]

So day 16 of NC is nearly over. I do work with her but generally dont see her in work, I did once and just said good morning and smiled about 2 weeks ago. We went out for 6 months, it was all great but I think she has a fear of commitment so once it hit the 6 month stage everything changed. She said she wanted a break, I obliged and went NC, after 3 days she said she made a mistake but then 2 weeks later it happened again, this time she said she thinks she would go our separate ways as she has a lot on . She is a bsy girl though but its all about priorities.

Anyway I text her after that saying she really hurt me the way she went about things, i deserved better treatment and i would prefer if we never spoke again. She replied saying she was sorry, not something she thought of overnight, never meant to hurt me, i do deserve better, can we at least be civil in work? I didnt respond to that.

We were never friends on facebook so I didnt have to delete her, up until a few days ago I dont check her FB page anymore. I havent deleted her off gtalk because i dont really feel the need to say anything. Deleted her number but never had the urge to drunk text her. I wasnt happy in the relationship because of her distance but a couple of days ago I got really angry and just hate her for what she did but at the same time I really miss her, but maybe I just miss the relationship aspect. I hate hearing her name from people in work, hate if i hear her downstairs and she is laughing etc. I think I am in the anger phase, is that normal after 16 days NC? I do hope she texts me but more so for me to have the power, wouldnt even know if I would respond!

[Andre12]

Girls are great at making themselves sound like they are having the time of their lives. Maybe she is but after only 6 months Id have to say you have to move on and not feel like a victim. Suck it up and totally forget about how you want her to feel. Sounds like your doing alright. If she texts ignore it. Not to have power because thats a bit bitter, just for the benefit of yourself.

[irishgerry]

was weird today, she sent me 2 work related emails thsat she didnt really have to send, my friend said its her way of initiating a conversation which gave me some hope but i shouldnt hope, have to just forget about her. bumped in to a mutual friend of hers then and he said he was sorry to hear about the both of us, that kind of hit home that its definitley over so just need to take 1 day at a time and get on with my life. nearly NC day number 17 over.