Sad me.

[childofcrow]

I am lonely. I am so, so lonely. I think everyone in the apartment is suffering from it.

 

You see, we have no close friends, save for each other. We used to, a long time ago, have a bustling social circle. Most of our really good friends have moved away. Now, in the dead of winter, I find myself sitting here on a Saturday, alone.

 

And, if I may be honest without causing anyone worry, it makes me question living.

 

There is no point to life without love and friendship. I am missing a crucial element of my life, and it is weighing on me. Sure, I've got a few people online I can talk to, but no one to really talk to in person.

 

I just don't understand. How did this happen? How did I go from surrounding myself with reliable people to having no one reliable around?

 

I try and make plans with people. I try to get a gaming group together, or a movie night, or a hang out. No one replies, or everyone is too busy. When I haven't seen you in 2 months, make time. People want to go out and spend tons of money, or go shopping. I can't afford to do that stuff. So I end up, at home, on a Saturday night. Staring at my computer screen, hoping for some human interaction.

 

The saddest part of everything is that other than the guys, my best friends are my cats. They don't even like me very much.

 

I just don't know what to do. I can't take much more of this isolation. I feel the weight of it every day.

[The Archer]

Do you have much free time? Taking up a new sport or activity would likely lead to making new friends. I find outdoors activities are best for bringing people together. I’ve been interested in several sports over the years and all have had a social component. Rock climbing, hiking, archery, mountain biking etc

 

Try not to get to down. Your situation is likely to be temporary. Take note of the little things that you enjoy.

[childofcrow]

I'm not really a sports person. Plus, it's really cold this time of year. I work full time.

[bananabread]

Youre in Halifax? In January. Lordy. I hear what you're saying but also, don't dismiss the possibility that S.A.D. (Seasonal Affective Disorder) could be playing a part in the sadness you're feeling. My sister must have light therapy as the winter months put her in the dumps.

 

Aside from that, I've gone through pockets of loneliness similar to what you're describing. I say "pockets" because the sadness/loneliness came in between good times. It's transitory child, honestly. It does not stay this way. Life flows and this situation will flow with it.

 

There is a point to life in addition to "love and friendship". There is Purpose. You have one--or several. I used to think my purpose was to suffer quite honestly. And I did. I went through profound difficulties. Oddly enough, I've found happiness and peace in my life BECAUSE of those hard times. They expanded my capacity for love and friendship and I also discovered my purpose: I am a better friend/daughter/sister/person because I can empathize and help people who hurt as I once hurt. People come to me, sit with me for hours, unburden themselves and leave feeling heard and understood. I can lift friends up from despair and make people laugh through tears. It gives me profound joy to help others. The loneliness and hurt I felt in pockets, enabled me to. So, I guess my point is: there maybe a point to this period in your life. Perhaps seeking the purpose of it might help?