Greggie Posted January 17, 2011 Share Posted January 17, 2011 Today has just been relentless. I don't know if boredom has ever been known to breed depression, but right now it kind of feels like it does. I am back in my home country until semester start (in February), and ever since I got here, I seem to have been spiraling down a deep and bottomless tunnel of despair, and I can't seem to drag myself out. Today I suppose I finally hit the bottom. I just looked in the mirror and thought to myself that I am the most worthless human being to ever exist. Silly I know, but thoughts will be thoughts. I just feel absolutely worthless. I don't know where these feelings come from; I have had them since as I long as I can remember, but lately they just seem to be getting worse. I feel stupid sitting here crying for absolutely no reason. I mean, nothing is wrong, no tragedy has befallen me, I am very happy with where I am in life, NOTHING IS FREAKIN' WRONG ...except everything. Everything inside of me. Thoughts? Advice? I will be grateful for any words anyone has to offer me right now. Thank you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pennyloafer2 Posted January 17, 2011 Share Posted January 17, 2011 From time to time, we glimpse our own human failings. This is not bad or good. When you look at yourself, look hard. Accept that you are not what you have pretended to be your entire life. You are scared, lonely, unwise, distrustful, selfish and frustrated. We all are. If you can learn to forgive this glimpse you see of yourself in the mirror, you will understand yourself, when you can do that, you will learn the skill of forgiveness and love. Accept your flaws and imperfections, and you will develop an ability to love unfailingly, selflessly, and uncritically. You are wrong about nothing being wrong. Something is wrong, very very wrong. You are just not allowing yourself to feel it, because you are scared. Let yourself be sad. Accept the sadness. Forgive it, and forgive yourself. The growth from fear is calm, the growth from loneliness is acceptance of yourself, the growth from being unwise, is loving to learn, the growth from distrust, is accepting things as they are, the growth from selfishness is selflessness, and the growth from frustration is bliss. I woke up with these thoughts this morning. I think they were meant for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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