givinggirl Posted June 4, 2010 Share Posted June 4, 2010 I know some of you are going to tell me that this is crazy and not to do it, but I've decided this is what I'm going to do. He's avoiding me for some reason, I have 2 scenarios in mind, one I'm really hoping it isn't, but it's a possibility and I might just have to deal with it and move on. Anyways, I'm going to first send him a text quoting the bday card he gave me. I'm going to tell him how it was the sweetest card I've ever gotten, it touched my heart, and I kept it and look at it when I am feeling bad. I'm going to open a live journal account, write all my feelings out, and then I'll send him a text & email with the link. He's away this weekend, has the iPhone, but I don't think he has his email set up on it (not sure), but this way, he can read it without needing his email if he chooses to. I'm just going to be 100% vulnerable, put myself out there, tell him exactly what I think and feel and it's going to be long. He is going to know everything and he's going to know why I decided to do this. I'm following my heart and my gut and I'm tired of holding it all in. I'm willing to take that risk because he is so important to me. If I need to move on, I will move on without any regrets. And, I will be okay and I will eventually get over it. Or, this might be the best thing I could have ever done. If he is just shy, scared and feeling not worthy, I might be able to get him out of that by me being completely 100% honest. There's a chance I could scare him more. I just can't be in limbo anymore. It's not good for me and it's not good for him. I have very strong feelings over this whole things. I have intuitions, and gut instincts that I am very trustful of. I might be wrong and if so, I hope to find that out too. I just need to lay it all out there, be brave, take the risk, be vulnerable for myself and I hope that he sees that he is worth it. Link to comment
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