JTRambo99 Posted June 1, 2010 Share Posted June 1, 2010 sorry if you people think i post to much but i really need help. im booked in for hospital tomorrow for 6 weeks, you might say, good, why be suicidal then. but i am, i just cant cope, yeah, hospital might do me good, i have acess to therpists etc, but i still wanna die. I came close to killing myself last friday (or thursday, cant remember), i didnt attempt, but i had i razor ready. Sigh, im probably not making any sense and just ranting. I just cant see anything good happening. im not even scared of suicide anymore, in fact if im dead in six weeks time ill be happen from now until then. LIFE JUST SUCKS Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sonicxman Posted June 1, 2010 Share Posted June 1, 2010 I havnt talked to you before, and would love to know whats going on in your mind. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BellaDonna Posted June 1, 2010 Share Posted June 1, 2010 JT, you took a very important step by seeking help and arranging treatment at the inpatient facility. That took a lot of courage. You are stronger than you realize. Naturally, the dark cloud of depression is trying to creep up on you and fill you with doubt and anxiety about this next step. It's all going to be ok though. You WILL get through this low point and into the treatment that you need. We are here for you, Bella Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JTRambo99 Posted June 1, 2010 Author Share Posted June 1, 2010 thanks bella. well sonicxman, my mind is really messed up. i cant even be bothered to type anymore, my fingers hurt. i guess, i just need a reason to live. i have no meaning of life what so ever, i dont even know why i bothered posting this thread. ill be off tomorrow anyway (hospital that is)..... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sonicxman Posted June 1, 2010 Share Posted June 1, 2010 Because like everyone on here, your looking for help and you came to the right spot, because your not alone. I wish you well my friend for doing the right thing and you will feel better. If you think someone is tired of hearing from you, do a little research on here. We (enotalone) has always been a ear for those needing to say something. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ionno Posted June 1, 2010 Share Posted June 1, 2010 By finding this site and posting your story, you showed to yourself and all of us that you still have some sense of hope and that you wish to continue you on. There are people that care out there and don't let those others out there get you down. If there's anything I learned in life, it's the few people that matter and care about you that count, and the rest really don't mean a thing. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Happiest26 Posted June 1, 2010 Share Posted June 1, 2010 Hang in there, it gets better. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Speranza Posted June 1, 2010 Share Posted June 1, 2010 JT two years ago I saw my brother in an even lower state than you. He had to be sectioned as he saw no point in going to hospital, and we didn't expect him to live. He had absolutely no desire to, was happy to be dying and said he had nothing to contribute to the world. He has recovered, realised that people do care and include him, and has produced an enormous amount of art and music and given a lot of love and laughter. He looks back at that time and can't believe he is through it. So hang in there. SOME part of you wants this to happen, so you are already in a better place than he was - and he recovered. May you know strength, courage and hope, and find people in the hospital you can really trust. I look forward to hearing from you later about how well you are doing. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HeartGoesOn Posted June 1, 2010 Share Posted June 1, 2010 JT I'm happy to hear that you're seeking treatment. We're all here for you, please remember that. All the best... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
doityourself Posted June 3, 2010 Share Posted June 3, 2010 JT- I wish you luck with your stay. If you wont be able to get to a computer, journal about your feelings and what you go through. Im here if you ever want to talk. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sidehop Posted June 3, 2010 Share Posted June 3, 2010 Stay strong JT, we're here for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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