kboykb Posted May 31, 2010 Share Posted May 31, 2010 Hola! Just need a bit of advice for my future here. Back in October I got a girl pregnant - she aborted it in December. This implanted a slight seed of fear in me. The reason is because she was on birth control, I wore a condom that did not break, and I washed up immediately afterwards. I'm always careful, and safe, and to this day I have no idea how it happened. She wasn't the right girl - a fling of sorts, and the thought of having a baby with someone that I had no real mental or physical attraction with was agonizing. Needless to say it may be some sort of message from higher above, or karma biting at me (as I did have my fun during the college years). I can no longer shake my head at the multitude of pregnant friends that I have, as I was once in their same position. This has actually led me to shut myself off from girls intimately and even mentally. I think I have had sex once or twice and met one girl since October, and even then it just felt off. At first I thought I was avoiding a relationship, but now I see there's a real problem here. The reason for this is because I really want to do something with my future. I'm currently taking some classes as a pre-med and intend to make it into medical school. I don't want anything to deter me from this path, but at the same time by doing this I'm shutting myself off from girls that like me.. Link to comment
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