Teaday Posted May 31, 2010 Share Posted May 31, 2010 It's been 2 months since being crushed by the guy who I was convinced would "never ever ever leave me no matter how bad things suck right now." We were going to fight through our differences (for eachother, of course) and eventually get married, produce babies that would be featured in Gap Kids ads, buy a dog, and live the good life. And that was the plan, until he left me. For another lady, no less. After one day of sappy love songs and incessant phone calls demanding him to "just admit it already," I discovered the truth of his indiscretions from a friend of a friend and forced myself to gather my pride and move on. Moving on entailed auctioning every gift he ever gave me on eBay, from which I collected 75 bucks for the cheating and lies I blindly endured over the duration of our 2.5 year on/off relationship. A rip-off, if you ask me, but nonetheless I celebrated with a great night out. Of course, moving on was made easier by the fact that I met my "dream guy" 2 days following my ex's motion to sever ties. I felt a deep connection with a new guy who obviously had a connection with me...along with every other atleast mildly sociable female. This guy was abnormally interesting to me, but in retrospect I wonder if my interest was solely in him, or the distraction he provided from my most recent heartbreak. Either way, I was unable to reach him beyond late-night (accidental) hang-outs. I gave up and resolved that he wasn't so dreamy anyways. Upon this revelation, I decided that it was time for a little break from getting tangled up in dating. And now, after a whopping one month outta the game, I feel...surprisingly good. I'm looking at men in a whole new light; real people who shouldn't be feared and can actually be enjoyed! I'm ready to re-enter the single person dating world. This enlightenment couldn't have come at a better time: nearing the mid-twenties range with plenty of mid-twenties-related changes to come. I have to admit, after what felt like years of stagnant fighting to be in a relationship that was unhealthy as sin, this is pretty exciting to me. As a side note: I had another journal but decided that my two contributions were enough to drive me to become increasingly fatalistic upon reflection. Link to comment
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