andi8172 Posted May 30, 2010 Share Posted May 30, 2010 a brief history of me well junior school iwas bullied so theres no surprise iwas scared to go to senior school but in my first couple of months something strange happened. Just sat there one day when the most popular girl in school came and sat next to me we became immediate friends and i became a popular person, everybody knew me and it felt great we wernt bf/gf but great pals all through school.unfortunately the work was changed half way through my time and the old studies were worthless ,so i guess you could blame that for some failures i know i do. On to work i never really knew what i wanted to do so i followed in other family trades often being put down so id fail at them and move on . what i wanted to do at the time was go to art college but my parents wouldnt let me forced me to get numorous job to bring money in often telling me im not clever enough for that job.So after settling in a printing job i had to move out i needed my space and distance and it was all going well until a family member stole my chequebook and sold most of my properties and when i told my parents i got told stop going on about it Well i lost everything had to move home started drinking and it was all downhill from there .Many years later and still drinking but in my own place i just had enough and took pills,alcohol and put a wire round my neck but in an unconcious state i passed out and couldnt do anything i fell breaking a door alerting a neighbour who phoned an ambulance.My dad never visited just said ive nothing to talk about with him. ell a while later my mum got cancer she only lasted 2 months i think she wanted out aswell but i moved back home to help my dad financially but it just drove a bigger wedge and i soon moved out again. so to the modern day i gave up drink been 6 months now but i still live on my own no friends still wanting to end it all by taking numorous pills sleeping with i knive i use to cut myselve i wire under my bed and ready to go. Sothats the short version of my life will there be more who knows im 38 now i have nothing own nothing know no one never been in love or been loved but for short while i was liked and i liked it shame they all see me as i nice guy if only they knew my head Link to comment
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