cherryberry123 Posted May 28, 2010 Share Posted May 28, 2010 I'm trying not to think reconciliation is possible with my ex, but I'm entering "lala" land again thinking there may be a chance. I made a promise to myself I will cut off ALL contact with my ex if he does not bother to contact me by this coming Sunday. The last time I spoke to him was May 21. I told him I can no longer be his friend, but he got upset..and I gave in. I said "I miss hanging out with you, but I only want to hang out if you truly want to. I feel like I'm forcing you.". He replied by saying "I miss hanging out with you also. Believe me, I want to hang out. We'll hang out after my 5 days shifts (which ended last Monday)". So, Monday rolled around(Never heard from him)...then Tuesday (I started getting depressed)...then Wednesday(Anxious, if I don't hear from him by Sunday..that's it. NC forever)...Thursday I check my phone to see a text msg. It was sent at 1:30am the night before. It said "Good night! Teddy says the same" Teddy is a bear a gave him a while ago (changed him name for privacy reasons.lol). Back in March, after going NC for 2 months, my ex placed Teddy as his facebook picture and emailed me the next day asking how I've been. The initial reason I joined ENA in the first place.I eventually told him to take the picture down since I gave it for "certain reasons". I feel like the relationship my ex and I have is unusual. The care we have for each other is still present. When we haven't heard from each other after a couple of days, we send texts like "Good night!". It's a good feeling, and makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. The connection we have is still there. I've read many threads about ena members and communication with their ex...and it's nothing like mine! It's always exes being hot and cold, being bitter, badmouthing, angry etc. But I need to get out of this fantasy...please knock some sense into me!!! Link to comment
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