Betteroffalone Posted May 27, 2010 Share Posted May 27, 2010 Its been nearly a month since the breakup. The first couple of weeks were hell for me, and I did contact him once within those two weeks looking all desperate and pathetic. After those first two weeks and 1 other set back, i didnt hear from him for a while, and was starting to accept that I wont hear from him. As soon as I hit that point, I get a text from him saying that he's missed me. So I ask him how he's been doing. He then replies by saying he's had a hard week, and I text him back asking him why, and after that i get no response. A set back. But I got over it, and i continue to try to move on. I then hit the point that I kinda do and kinda dont know if I will hear from him anymore, but I start to heal and progress nevertheless. And so yesterday was the day that I truly felt free from him, and I was ready to move on. I went for a walk that day in the rain and it brought out the happy me, the happy person who i hadnt seen in a while. Everything was great, work was great that night too. I even made eye contact with a new co-worker that made my heart skip a beat haha. I go home seen the light at the end of tunnel so close right now, even though i know im not out of the woods yet, theres at least hope. Then BAM!!! I get a text from the ex, saying "I miss you". My heart sank for a brief moment. And old feelings emerge, but not as strong as they were before, however very apparent. So, i text back saying "Dont do this, im healing well, i dont need this right now". His text reads "I know and im sorry, just wish we were together". So Im a bit upset at this point, and i reply "I was in love with you when it ended and I still am in love with you, but i just dont want to be put through the hell again that i went through the days after it ended." His text after was cold and stated "thats not what im asking for, all i said was i missed you" I didnt reply that night, but i felt like something had to be said. So today I texted him saying: "Last night I took what you said otherwise, and i know why i did. Its because im still not over you yet. And hearing those words "I miss you" without the hope of reconciliaton just reminds me of what i lost and sets me back to the day it ended. And i dont need that. Time will heal those feelings, and thats what i need, Time. He texts me immedatly saying "Alright, if you want i can delete your number from my phone so I wont be tempted." And i left that decision up to him. The texting conversation ended after that, and I feel sick, not as bad as i did the day he broke up with me, but theres still something there. But at least now i know I wont be hearing from him and this ending is a much more secure ending for a better stronger beginning of moving on. Link to comment
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