aldridal Posted May 24, 2010 Share Posted May 24, 2010 So, I feel pathetic even writing this. My girlfriend is studying in the south for the summer, and she'll be back at the start of August. It's been 2 weeks, and I have just over 30 days until I go visit her. Thing is, it's been tough. I know it shouldn't, but it has. I have come to determine that I'm dependent on her, which I know is bad, and I'm trying to work on it. I don't want to be. It's just so hard to break away from it, you know? I find myself getting angry/anxious/worried if she doesn't text back within a reasonable amount of time. I picture her down there, having a great time, and instead of being happy for her, I worry that she's going to realize how much fun it is to be away from me, and not want to continue our relationship when she returns. Here's the kicker. I KNOW my thoughts are crazy. How do I know? Because we talk on the phone every day, or we skype. Yesterday was the shortest phone conversation we had (15 minutes), but we had texted over 30 times with each other. She calls me out of the blue, and has been bragging about how she's going to send me a care package and some letters. She also asked for my parents' address so she can send them a postcard. She also has my picture up in her room, and some flowers that I had delivered displayed proudly on her desk. So why am I STILL like this? I shouldn't be, I know I shouldn't. I've been diagnosed with severe anxiety, and have recently gotten back on medication. I just wish I didn't always feel the need for some sort of communication with her. Anybody have any tips on how to overcome this? Any ideas on what in the world I can do? Please, brutal honesty is welcome. I just need to hear I'm crazy, and to get over it. Link to comment
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