death of my dog

[John14087]

my dog died a couple of days ago. i still really havent really gotten over it. i mean i had him since i was 11 i wanna put this in writing cuz it will help me just i dunno i just wanna tell the story. i came home from work thurs and i could hear him having difficulty breathing. i went in and i saw him lying down, i tried to get him to stand up but he wouldnt budge he was just looking at me. i called my sister then her friend to find an emergency animal hospital. we took him and they said he had an some sort of GI problem. he looked so worried. i remember them trying to put the mask on him but he kept struggling to keep it off. the doc told us he was too old for surgery to be feasible and my dad made the decision to put him to sleep.

they then carried him to a room and my brother, sister, her bf, my gf were all there petting him and comforting him. by this time he was on anestheic and he was breathing slowly. he held on till my dad got there and we were all there together with him. we called the nurse for the final injection. i looked into his eyes and i saw him pass on. his breath gradually got weaker and weaker and eventually he stopped altogether. we stayed with him for i dunno how long after that, it was hard to tell everyone aws crying so hard. we covered him with his favorite blanket and we left. it was so hard to see him go. after i got home from work i walked into his old room. i could still smell his smell in there. i didnt know his death would affect me this much. its like losing a brother. were gonna have him cremated and his paw put into a mold.

i miss you Buddy, you were the best dog in the whole world, you were everyones buddy thats why that name was so appropriate for you, you were friendly to even the newest of people. i miss your barking at night to "protect the homestead" as i called it. i miss giving you the scraps after dinner time, i miss the "tappa tappa tappa" of your claws as you walked. i miss hanging with you when you slept in toms room. i even miss cleaning up your poop. you were part of the family and you brought me up when i was down. you could sense when i was angry and you tried your best to make me feel better. i miss laughing while watching you dream and twitch. where you are theres steaks and room to run and you can be as lazy as you want. RIP Buddy, my faithful dog.

[jengh]

I am very sorry for your loss. I recently lost my 18 year old cat so I completely understand how you're feeling. The loss of a pet is the loss of a family member. It'll take some time, but you'll find yourself getting better, missing him less. You'll never forget him, but your sadness will be replaced by all of the happy memories you shared.

[H20]

Awww..your post almost made me cry. I have a 12 year old lab and I love her so much..I know it will hurt so much when she passes. Please grieve him as you would any other family member. He loved you too. Hope you feel better soon!

[RideOn]

So very sorry to hear the loss of your dog. Reading this I can relate because I lost my dog last April. My dog did the twitching and dreaming as well. It would also bark in it's sleep. My dog passed away by my bed but waited til I fell asleep. You put your dog's needs ahead of your own by making the difficult decision to put it to sleep. That was a very selfless thing to do because like the vet said the dog was too old for surgery. You did not make it suffer by keeping it alive. I'm sure your dog knows this and is thankful for everthing you did for it in its life.

[catfeeder]

I'm so sorry about your dog. My heart goes out to you.

 

My best,

Cat

[woodc5]

I'm really sorry about your loss. My dog died in February while I was away at school. He was MY first dog as opposed to my parents. I loved that dog to death and still miss him. It's definitely an adjustment, but it does get easier. It helps to remember it's in their best interest

 

All the best

[Anotherday]

I am so deeply sorry. May this give you some comfort...

 

The Loss Of A Dear Friend

 

I stood by your bed last night,

I came to have a peep.

I could see that you were crying,

you found it hard to sleep.

 

I whined to you so softly as you brushed away a tear,

"It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."

 

I was close to you at breakfast,

I watched you pour your tea.

You were thinking of the many times,

your hands reached out to me.

 

I was with you at the shops today,

your arms were getting sore.

I longed to take your parcels,

I wish I could do more.

 

I was with you at my grave today,

you tend it with such care.

I want to reassure you,

that I am not lying there.

 

I walked with you towards the house,

as you fumbled for your key.

I gently put my paw on you,

I smiled and said, "It's me."

 

You looked so very tired,

and sank into a chair.

I tried so hard to let you know,

that I was standing there.

 

It's possible for me to be so near you everyday.

To say with certainty, "I never went away."

 

You sat there very quiet, then smiled, I think you knew..

In the stillness of that evening,

I was very close to you.

 

The day is over now... I smile and watch you yawning,

And say, "Goodnight, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."

 

And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,

I'll rush accross to greet you,

and we'll stand side by side.

 

I have so many things to show you,

there is so much for you to see.

Be patient, live your journey out...

Then come home and be with me.

[sidehop]

I'm sorry to hear about your dog

[Hurting85]

So sorry to hear.

 

I had one dog growing up- from 3 to 18. I'm 22 and am still not over it. They really do become part of your family.

 

Here's a poem my grandmother gave to me:

 

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

 

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

 

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

 

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

 

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

 

Author unknown...

[hers]

I'm so sorry to hear about this. My dog died very quickly of cancer in october, just 7 months ago. I still miss her terribly. My best advice to you is not to rush through your grief. Don't tell yourself, or let anyone tell you, that you should be over it by a certain amount of time and that you can't feel the emotions about it. I'm still grieving in my own way, but I feel best after I've let myself feel the emotions of it all, whther that's screaming anger, lots of tears, or just feeling gloomy. Don't rush through those feelings, no matter how miserable they are at the time, b/c in retrospect, you'll appreciate that you were able to.

 

Thinking of you.

[John14087]

Thank you all so very much. the poems are so great and i know hes in a better place now. today i put his old bed upstairs in my room, so he can be by me when i sleep. my sister also is gonna throw a sorta of part for him to celebrate his life, i am still crying on and off. its gonna take a while to get over but ill remember the good times i had with him.

[hers]

John, I still sometimes sleep with my dog's collar and still talk to her even though she's not physically there. Sometimes just saying to her that it's time for bed like I used to or hearing her tags jingle on her collar to make it sound like she's in bed with me at night is all I need to feel like she's still there and it reminds me that I had a wonderful animal at one point. Do what you feel you need to do to remember your dog and deal with his death as you need to. Doing what I need to do, no matter how corny I thought it was, was the best thing for me. Has been the best thing for me, rather. Good luck to you.

[browneyedgirl36]

I too am very sorry for your loss. I lost my beautiful 15 year old cat to cancer last fall, and I still miss her and think of her everyday.

 

I had her cremated, and I have a little box with her ashes on my nightstand, with a picture of her next to it. I was worried at first that people would think I was crazy for having her cremated, but my friends and family were really understanding, and it was comforting to have a little memento of her.

 

As others have said, it takes time to heal from the loss of a beloved pet. Cry as much as you need to. I still cry sometimes, and it has been nearly 9 months since my cat passed. I have wonderful memories of her, though, and they make me smile when I am sad. Keep reminding yourself of the long and happy life that your dog had, and the wonderful times you shared.