bluen Posted May 22, 2010 Share Posted May 22, 2010 I am 6 months post break up. The time has flown by but I find myself wallowing in the same place with no sense of direction. While I don't feel anything for her anymore, I find myself longing for what is my idea of her because the girl I fell for doesn't exist anymore. The pain of losing her and the relationship has had a profound effect on me and my psyche and the fact that I will never speak to her again really tears me apart. Falling in love is a risk because the road ahead is blind in all directions, when you regain sight, you may or may not like what you see. I've lost my job had to move back in with my parents and just feel like a loser/failure of epic proportion. When I try to motivate myself to get back on my horse and get my life back in order I falter over and over again. It just feels hopeless like my life has been made up of one bad decision after another. I know how much of a debbie downer I sound like at the moment and have even seeked psychiatric help and in turn have been give anti-depressants. I haven't started them yet because I know what its like to be on AD and I am scared to take that plunge. I used to be the kind of person to bounce back from something horrible happening but the last 6 months have been my eventual undoing and I just feel like the end is near for me. I just want my life back, happiness feels like a thing of the past. I know a lot of folks on this forum are a week or a month out from their break-up which would absolutely warrant the struggle, but 6 months later, should it still hurt this badly? Link to comment
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